what's then...?

I woke up with a feeling of being completely abandoned. I've experienced it time ago and I was in pain for at least one year. Is there any recipe to avoid it or reject it and just carry on with ones life. How painful it's to experience it. It makes me feel that the whole world collapsed and i am drown. I can not relax my mind, my thoughts are spinning around my head like crazy and I can not focus on single one. I'm completely absorbed by this sea of never ending worries which are bothering my brain. I hardly can manage to sleep...When I am awake the demon is coming back and occupying my soul. I don't want let him in but it's stronger then my own determination and gets into my brain anyway to shake it and mess it up. How much I wish to be free of it, I want to welcome the peacefulness and calmness. I want them to dominate my inner self. I want to be free of negative energy and fulfilled with the positive one which was always part of my path. Where am I going now? How to stop that devil from ruining my life, how to push him away to become normal again. I've got a plan ...we all know what it means like the whole world is collapsing, it's like we are pushed away from the edge of the river and going with strong current towards the highest water fall where if we don't catch the edge we are going to be taken by for ever. We'll never ever manage to come out of the river and will be prisoned in its depth for ever. To be able to get out of the river we must take a challenge and with all the mental strength we've got we have to catch the tree branch and embrace it with all the determination we've to avoid the powerful river's current to take us with its spring. Whatever is caused by the mother nature affects our immune and nerve system. We can not function without that connection which is our biology and we have to do everything to follow the nature but also follow the power of mind. Whatever happens in our brain is not just chemical reaction of outside receptors it's our own imagination, our mental projection of facts we unconsciously don't want us to happen. Unfortunately human ability of negativity absorption is so strong that instead of making positive things happen we stimulate the negative energy and provoke the bad things happen as we projected in the first place. Brain will follow our thoughts and that's why we have to be careful about over analysing some facts which not necessary must take place. Why are we scared of positive projection which makes us happy straight away? Why would worries overwhelm our selves and make us feel useless and deeply depressed? Sometimes I've got impression that the medicine in spite of being hugely advanced in real life is pointless because leaves us with the emptiness and completely unaware of what's going on within our body and mind. I'm still convince that the blog's writing is the best tool to help ourselves when we feel completely abandonment in the middle of nowhere.