Invite to DANCE STOPS TRAFFICKING - RESOLUTION! 2014 THE PLACE - LCP 'AM I'

Invite to DANCE STOPS TRAFFICKING - RESOLUTION! 2014 THE PLACE - LCP 'AM I'

diary 18th April 2011

Sometimes we ask ourselves whats wrong with us. Why aren't we just the way others would accept us to be? Why aren't we in their shoes for change to experience their own pain and needs. Why do we have to go through the same all over again in order to meet the same expectations and the abilities to destroy the emotions that occur us. Why aren't our feelings more straight forward and ready to talk for us and save us? Why our dignity is put on trail and has to be tested each time we are about to get what we really want. Why aren't we equal so the man-man, the woman- woman and the man - woman can carry on with their own wishes and aims without faking the reality. Why do we become judgmental when it comes to intimate feelings. Why do we expect the physical contact if we can only give and receive the spiritual one? Why are we attached to someone if we are lonely anyway. Why do we restrict each other if we are free to do whatever we feel. Why do we make others suffer without any purpose, especially when we really want to do the opposite. Why aren't we loved the way we are. Why should we change for any reason someone or something which is not belonging to us? It's enough to be restricted by political, social and economical reasons, that's why we don't want to be prisoned by any other issues which come from the closest person so important to us. Why before the sun shines the clouds cover it and bring the grey shade on our life. Isn't it just the image of being poor and frustrated, isn't it just an excuse from opening our soul and heart..... I live my dream life without any major limits, I want to offer the best of me to the universe and not expect any think in return. That would be fantastic if we all could do that. We get trapped by our possessive thoughts and don't let them go. They make us slaves of our selves, of our material and mental imperium, of attachment and addiction to whatever is material and can be easily destroyed and detached. When we fall a sleep or read a book, watch the movie, we realise that we can easily detach from the possessive thoughts which make us prisoners of our own desires. What about getting rid of the desires and just purely live the moment in loneliness or in the company of pure energy gifted by the ray of sun radiating on our face into out heart. What's wrong with our self - defence system of becoming addicted to our ego which doesn't let us go when we become sensitive and fragile. We want to control the whole world but if the intention is not pure, we are not going to succeed. Instead we'll be frustrated and miserable because of the rejection. The rejection is the weapon to prove the character strength. We all get familiar with that feeling of luck of acceptance, love and warmness. We have to be aware that if one person goes away, another will come and all over again... There should not be any fear of being left by ourselves because we are lonely anyway, but we are surrounded by beloved people who can share their love with us if we only open ourselves to it. Being in Florida means being exposed on all possible temptation which lead to loose the track of our destiny. Every day we have to remind ourselves what are we here for the reason and if we keep rolling on the same rode nothing is going to district us from the path we are walking on.
My wife just came back yesterday from West Virginia, from the meditation. She spent few days in Monastery to reflect on her life and purpose of being here. She detached from the surrounding to clearly see her path she discovered a time ago. Unfortunately sometimes we loose this track for a moment and we need consciously bring ourselves back on it no matter happens. The little distractions are highly recommended in order to break down the on going series of factors which are leading us nowhere. I am still involved in yoga teaching and dance performance. On 18 and 19 September there is the 'Earth dance' festival in Miami Beach I am going to be a part of, by doing the martial arts / contemporary dance performance http://www.earthdance.org/. Then on 26th September I've got the yoga dance workshop which I am working on right now. I've just started editing my yoga on boat film and as usual don't have enough time to focus on it. I've re injured my knee which swollen like a ball and can not really move. Just lying down on the couch and working on line on outstanding duties such as time table for my classes in London once I am back. I' feel overwhelmed by meeting new people and going out. I want to reset my mind and body. In fact my knee definitely is telling me something....

Naples Sept 2013

...6 months of a hell of the work prior to the Edinburgh Fringe Festival 3-10th Aug 2013. Then relaxation in the Scottish mountines with my parents and friends, later on in the Polish mountines and eventually in southern Italy on the boat and the land. In total almost 2 months of intensively recharging the batteries and meeting extraordinary people. I've spent most of the time sightseeng Vesuvio, Pompei, Sorento and Amalfi cost such as Positano and Amalfi. My italian friends which I made over there were always with me, showing me around and sharing all the knowledge and experience they had. I must admit they new a lot. I've been introduced to the mistery of southern life style 'dolce non far niente' and immersed deeply in it. Italians are very generous and gentlemen, they totally know how to look afrer a woman...;) I was living a dream. Visited twice Vesuvio without and with my parents, 1181m above the sea, 500m of crater's lengh and 230m of depth. It was impressive being up there in the most visited wonders of the world and having a beautiful view on the Naples bay from one side and the Sorento's from the other side. On the boat when I was practicing yoga in Castellammare either in the morning or evening I was facing Vulcano, every time it was such a powerful and energising experience. Last 2 weeks of my stay there I was emmeresed in a local lifestyle or rather princess's comfortable life by going to the greatest restaurants and putting on weight because of a double portions as my friends wouldn't eat at all. They were on the same boat, suffering the separation from their families. They were constantly blaming themselves for being a cause of their wives lost. There is nobody to blame for living the life one wants. If someone loves us deeply, can forgive anything, if not then it means that's we are better off by ourselves. Most of time we don't want to know that family is not necessarily for us or may be not in this particular moment and context. We push the boundaries to survive by saving something which is gone, it doesn't make any sense. Im on the plane on the way back to London, having no place to go. I was very insecure either I should have stayed in South Italy or come back to London. I've applied for the dance festival 'resolutions' - the biggest in the world in regards the contemporary dance competition and have been accepted. This is the reason why I am heading back home to London. I need to be ready to perform in February, then few more performances in the Uk, finaly get on boat and sail for 4 months around Greek and Turkish islands. After all, next November 2014 cross the Atlantic. The next 7 months will be full of work to prepare the LCP' tour around the UK. I don't think I am going to spend xmas anywhere warm as my aim is dance and sailing. I need to find a one bedroom flat to live in and be able to rent it out while I am away. Any ideas....?