Saturday, October 22, 2011

sailing in italy 1-22 September
















The summer in Italy passed by so quickly that I didn't even manage to make any note. Just right now while I'm on the Londons tubes train can recall my memories
of one month ago. After 2 weeks of being in Poland I took the plane and landed in Rome, from where my friend drove me to Naples. As soon as I arrived I've spent a couple of nights at his girlfriend's place where she showed me around. This is not a first time I stayed in such a charismatic southern Italian city, but there is so much to see. Even if I wasn't in the best state of mind, I still managed to indulge my Italian experience with delicious napoletanian pizza (fratelli di buffala) and fantastic ice creams. Also 'il baba' is not too bad (liquored donaugh). As soon as we could, we moved by the signora ydra2 boat. And that was a pick point of my happiness. Beside of being grumpy and miserable on the land as soon as I jumped on board I felt lighter and relieved. All the worries were suddenly gone. We were sailing around Campania (Naples) and Latina (Rome) region. We didn't go so far but we stayed relaxed and easy in Ischia. After 2 weeks my parents arrived and we picked them up from Naples. We sailed together the whole night and half day to Ventotene. There is a festival every summer which lasts for 2 weeks and all habitants of the island (200) participate by organising all the attractions such as fireworks, balloons flights, life music concerts an so on. We took a part of it. Beside of that we used the canoa, swam a lot and have as usual fantastic meals. My parents were living their life dream, their honey moon after 40 years of marriage. We all had got great time even if we happened to be in the middle of storm at the end. But the sea sickness is a part of the sailing experience;). After my 3 weeks and my parents 1 week on boat we took the bus and traveled 5 hours from Naples to Lecce (Puglia) where I run the yoga and dance retreat....My patents are just wonderful, they adopt so easy to each circumstances. Either on the boat or during the yoga and dance retreat they just were perfect. Did everything according to the plan. Also my capitan, the best male friend ever took massively care of them and especially of me when I was in the middle of emotional rollercoster....

Friday, October 21, 2011

Yoga dance retreat 24-30 September











The first day of the retreat was pretty challenging. 3 people of 10 have lost their language at the airport. During the night when the last client arrived the taxi driver drove off with her suitcase. Thankfully it wasn't on purpose because few hours later everything was sorted out and the suitcase has been delivered back by the drugged taxi driver. I hardly could sleep and now after the morning yoga session I'm falling asleep. I'm tired.

I have got a wonderful time and so have the participants. At least they've said so. Every morning 2 hours of yoga practice and every evening 1 and half hour of yoga dance. During the day 1 hour of different activities such as yogalates, contact impro, acro yoga on the beach, pair yoga. During the day we were exploring the beautiful beaches such as Gallipoli and Otranto. The big town - Lecce is known as Florence of south. In fact it was very monumental and rustic town without much of renovations. Puglia is supposed to be a poor region, however it's not that obvious. Habitants seem to have a high style and very chilled out life. I wouldn't mind it for a while. People are very solar and nice, no pressure at all.

As soon as I came back home in London I felt such a low esteem. The whole world was about to crawl down as soon as I entered my apartment in basement. It doesn't feel right to move from a beautiful hot country with such a strong natural colours and contrasts to a big town with huge traffic and hectic life. But it's not even the hectic life which is disturbing. It's the dump flat which is putting me down. People are in rush without acknowledging each others.
It's two weeks since I've been in London and it's getting cooker, though still sunny. I'm injured so can not dance at the moment. I'm forced on planning this year professional work and holiday time. I've joined dance degree on second year. It's a part time degree in collaboration with a contemporary dance school of London The Place - where I'm actually training my self every morning by taking the professional dance classes. Now I'll be there also twice a week in the evening. Next summer I am going to ogranise yoga and dance retreat in Italy on the boat. This year I'll focus on my dance company to develop the new multi-ethnical dance project. In terms of teaching will set up my own yoga dance class in a dance school and corporate classes of Yoga and Pilates within London's big corporations, run yoga therapy developed into movement therapy, move to a nice apartment;) now I'm just hoping to recover asap from my knee injury, flu and broken heart so I can make all that happen. I will gaver more often with my friends and organise meeting group to exchange the ideas and opinions.Amen...

Monday, August 29, 2011

diary, Poland

And again back home to Poland. It was such a hectic time before the performance 9th august and after. Before the performance on top of the publicity, contacts, lights, props, costumes and the Londons riot we were short of cameramen and professional photo camera equipment. My parents arrived one day earlier and managed to get to see our latest full production of 'lust lost last'. They are always in London in the most exciting and remarkable time of some social and political events. We had got few cancelations because of the circumstances but who came to the theatre was safe and could focus on the performance. We had also got some technical problems before the beginning of the 2 act while we were still on the stage in front of the audience waiting for lighting engineer to come in time and start playing the music, operate our video projection and special effects. He apparently didn't have a clue that the interval was of 10 minutes instead of 20. So when we were about to rock nobody but dancers were ready. From one hand it put even more tension at the auditorium because nobody knew if it was on purpose or not. But shortly after seeing people going around at the backstage the audience realised that something was wrong. We bravely kept the poses in complete stillness at least for 5 minutes. When the music started it turned out that it was the wrong one. We haven't moved at all until the right music appeared. This is not a first time that something unpredictable happens in such an important moment but nevertheless the show must go on. After the preparations and the actual show we've been streamed online and apparently even 15 minute before the show has started we were already alive, of course without our concern. Being honest I still haven managed to watch the whole streamed video but I know for fact there were some interruptions during the transition.
After the show I had to pack all my stuff and move down to another flat before my leave. My partner was moving out to Boston in the same time, we basically took of together on the same day 15th August but from different airports of London to different destinations. I came back with my parents to my homeland leaving all the disaster behind. When I ended up in Poland problems with a new flat in London and tenant have come on surface. As I wasn't able to deal with the situation because of luck of internet access for 10 days I had do switch off my worries and let everything go. I had got a perfect environment to recharge the batteries and switch off as I was away from the civilisation - in the middle of such a beautiful polish mountains - Beskid Zywiecki. Even though I couldn't relax. We had got such a great time with my mum between visiting my nephew in Vistula, going to Kamesznica to sort out things with my house, but still couldn't still my mInd when I was alone with my thoughts. So many things were bothering me before leaving my mad world in London that I'm still recovering. I'm becoming to feel much better now and observing surroundings, people. Lots of things changed in my country for the best like nice smell. As soon as I became almost alergic to any sort of artificial fragrances people here started wearing the perfumes. Even the female tickets controller is very sexy and using a really strong perfume. I can not complain considering the hottest day of the year.
I'm on the train to Warsaw which is very cheap (20£ return) but interesting thing is that it takes 4 and half hour to get to Warsaw instead of 2.5 by intercity. I wanted to have longer sleep and cheap tickets so I must pay the price. I haven't slept for most of the night so I could have taken the one at 4.35am but I didn't as I have fell asleep between 3 and 4.30am. So now I'm on very packed and never lasting hot train. Hopefully in a half hour I'll be in Warsaw, then 30 mins of tube and will see my friend!!!!!what don't we do for our best friends;)
I've finally got time to read and write. I'm reading the 'Moonwalking with Einstein' book about the memory athletes championship. It's pretty interesting concept how to memorise the thousands of words, numbers and phrases in such a short time. I'm reading 'zwierciadlo' - one of my favourite magazines from the past and realising that its quality is very average. I've managed to complete the written exam of yoga thearapy which I still have to submit. I'm doing some bits and pieces i was lucking of for ages. I'm loving it, just dedicating time to myself. Of course I'm working in the meantime sorting out my retreat, house and various outstanding stuff. I've almost arrived to Warsaw....
And after weekend I am already back home with my family. I continue to practice yoga every morning, eating lovely breakfast outdoor, either in our mountain's house or the city's one, catching up with easy reading about everything possible including the spirituality, writing, catching up with friends and sorting my London's flat out at the moment. Psychologically and emotionally I am getting a little bit better, without a huge trauma and side artistic life effects, getting back to balanced life in harmony with my self and others. I am beginning to love myself again to be able to love others and do not expect anything in return. Back on track, thought still not very certain about my nearest future. Something is about to happen on my path to let me live my live spontaneously again as I always did...'carpe diem'!!!!!

Diary, 18th July 2011

I'm siting at the Thames bathed by the sunshine with a beautiful view of yachts in Katherine dock of London. I really like this place as it reminds me of my sailing life left behind. I'm sunbathing, it's my first summer since 7 years of living in London. I'm having a good time besides the personal live's uncertainty. Though we can never be certain of anything at the end of the day. I'm on the junction of crossed roads and not sure which turn to take. I might just stay still and wait for other factors to influence my life's choices.sometimes stillness is the best wisdom, and I dint really know where to go so I'll go nowhere. I'll just watch the scenes happening in my life from outside as I am not part of it. Nothing can really touch me, I will stay passive and just take what lives offers me. No expectations, no disappointments, just plane flow. As much as I try as much I'm not getting where I want. I should be acceptant and compromising. But from the other hand I am the way I am and can not change it. So why should I get disappointed because of someone's hesitation towards the way I am.,.? The right time will come and in the meantime of living my life I will be patient and wait....

16/7/2011
Yesterday we (me and Debbie) had got a very important meeting with the executive director of one of the Londons Theatres-Bernie arts grant centre. We were discussing the future of our dance company, fingers crossed that he will manage to get founding from arts council to help us with our human rights project 'Lust Lost Last'. He will possibly offer us in the future residency at his centre. Anyway as usual we have to carry on with our own rehearsing space and our own facilities. Eventually the day will come to make our dream true. It's already happening and it's all up to us. We need really push it now, we need to rehearse much more. I've finally got my Pilates exam, such a pain. I'm glad it's over, otherwise I would have lost my passion for Pilates and teaching. It was very demotivating teaching technique for the participants. I don't know what was wrong about it but I didn't feel a right attitude from the leaders, not very encouraging. I haven't completed all the exam procedures yet as is was taking ages and I needed to rush for my vinyasa class. As soon as I fought and swam I felt renew. I am thinking of continuing some studies either physical (ma) or dance theatre (ba). But from the other hand I am not sure if I can handle someone's instructions. It looks that I've reached the point where I don't what to be told how to do things, I want to keep on my individuality and developed my own skills. As soon I started reaching I was so experimental and inventive, each single class was particular and full of passion. As soon as I started upgrading my qualifications the passion seems to be gone. Not fully but I'm bored of what I learnt. My partner is leaving in couple of weeks to USA and I'm staying in Europe. I haven't felt very well for most of the current year due to my head injury and his doubts...now I'm becoming more acceptant of reality and planning my own life. There is something on my path waiting for me. I'm heading to North Dulich (Se London) to see my private Pilates client. It's always very uplifting to be able to help people up to bring more awareness of their own body and mind. I love teaching and double benefit from giving than taking. It's very awarding to transmit my passion onto others and see my strong influence on ones life.
For the first time since 7 years I'm spending half summer in London. I really enjoy the beautiful aura of the city and the splendour of places and people. It's such a charming city of I really open myself to experience it's uniqueness.
I'm on my way back from my friends party and I must admit that few friends I've got in London are really amazing. Some of them are happy to help my dance production in terms of photography, filming and editing. I'm really pleased to have their support.

RHUL, LOGBOOK, JP, LONDON 26th JUNE 2011

Royal Holloway University of London and Jasmin Vardimon Company
Postgraduate Certificate in Physical Theatre for Actors and Dancers 2010-11

Physical theatre:
Title: 'Lost In Transition'
Length of the piece: 15"
Music: Hofesh Schechter Company
Abbreviations: L (Linsday), J (Yoohee), A (Joanna/Asia)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byUiN0vnbgo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wv8u9agG8H8&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_X9TyQvNSIY&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWjoyPgoZAk&NR=1

The current work is an extension (10") of the previous 5 mins piece 'lost in transition'. The intention is to bring on stage the frustration and despair of human being. The main protagonist is a fear of being unable to survive in the society because of different reasons such as addiction to love, drugs and alcohol. The main reason to survive is to not commit the moral crime of suicide. However the moral crime has been almost committed by rejecting of the faith for rights to live. The shadow of unknown and illusion instead of bringing a hope goes in the opposite direction and brings the threat instead. The threat of loneliness and outsider's approach devastates one's psyche and provokes despair. Living in the world of having a lot of choices and possibilities of each one identity, a human being gets lost. We become insensitive towards our own feelings and thoughts in order to follow the crowd.

This creation of my work is based on injustice which one evokes within it's own unhappiness and frustration of being unable to live in the society. Despite of the fear the main topic is violence, aggression, weakness and total mental and physical devastation.

There are 3 characters representing the society's concept of loneliness and luck of confidence to survive. The frustration is shown through the one's nightmare.

Through the real time projection the images of different faces of desperation are pictured during the performance. The life physical movement and recorded sound are part of the show.

To layer the intention of the piece and state of mind of characters the use of props such as shoes, jacket has been applied. The symbol of hair represents the powerless of action and devotion to live. The closet and toilet paper reflect the addictive nature of human being.

Playing with a real time projection, which flashes in and out on the stage, by changing visually angles of appearing images builds up the intention of frustration which eventually becomes more dynamic and with explosion of movement dies. Leaves an audience with tasteless feeling and uncertainty.

One is in the toilet (L), another one behind the stages door (`J) and one on the stage -wall (A) (real time video projection on stage, two walls and ceiling projected one at the time and then switching on and of between each). Two entering the space are part of the person from the toilet's nightmare. Unison - projection on the wall (J), two others against the walls (A,J). Drunk, frustrated, lost. Set solos of each one on the toilet (3x8) performed in real time, speeded up and very slow motion. Added lyres: sneezing the nose, sniffing the cocaine, cleaning the bum, and flashing the water. Solos into trio (very aggressive and dynamic movement). L ends up on the toilet by the set up sequence until she falls a sleep (black out). Flashy lights in and out with A and J in different space and position (dead).

Developed into…

The beginning (act1)
L starts on the toilet as she is falling a sleep and everything what happens during the performance's time is her dream - nightmare. The projection is on the main front wall on the stage. She does her solo, followed by J and A (located in next to the side walls) - each one separately. Light spots on one person performing. Then comes fusion of their solo in unison, developed later into 2 reps, one normal speed and the second – very fast. Lights on all and then spots in and out on each separately in the second fast repetition (not sure yet where to put it either here or at the end if the piece).
Black out, L shadow - messing hair in front of the audience projected from the toilet (L). A&J coming toward each other in the middle of the stage and imitating a drunken women walking past (hair sequence). Black out. A&J are coming of stage to back door.

Transition into the hair motive (act2)
L is messing up her hair and shadow effect appears on the front wall while A & J are getting into the space from sidewalks walking like drunk, bombing into each other. And starting their contact routine with messed hair all over their faces. A is dragging J to the floor. L is either projected on the wall while she is synchronizing the hair routine with A&J. A£J get of the stage to backdoor to pick up the chairs and come back with a drunk paste caring on the chairs into the stage's space. Followed by trio is in unison and chairs sequence (act 3-the end).

Ending routine (act3)
J comes out first with a chair (later on developed into the blocks, therefore coming into the space without anything just drank paste walk), wearing heels and jacket, unstable paste, followed by L and J. Setting against the pillars - from the left J,L,A. Shoes routine. Each one is doing the same movement but in their own way. Draft: shoes off, jump with hips up, left leg round de jacket on air, come up on the chair (side, front), jacket off, legs out, down to roll back, toilet paper roll, cocaine sniffing, plank, rolling backstage with the paper, floor rolls, monkey walk, start to the left, first plank in canon (J,L,A), second to the right, plank in unison. Facing diagonal, kneeling on left knee, roll over left shoulder, roll on the right shoulder in canon (A,L,J). 4x forward drags, 3x down to elbow to come up, twice jump in the air to die down on the floor. Waking up from the dream.


The initial intention of the solo’s draft:
I've got this image in my mind of a woman who is deprived, frustrated and depressed. She doesn't know where to go and how to carry on with her daily life. She's been in the past physically and psychologically abused, she ended up doing the drugs and loosing herself in alcohol. She doesn't see anymore the way out and gets stacked in her own limited by addictions world. She is not really aware of her body and mind; she's lost and completely unconscious. She lost the track of reality and she is not anymore a part of the society. She's depraved and wrack women who lost her identity.
When I started working on the piece I saw the whole scene at least of half an hour performance. Initially i thought about the nightmare when we are dreaming about something really unpleasant and suddenly we wake up and realize that it was just a bad dream. I also thought of doing solo, as it was duet. And it goes like this. Drank, dragged addicted women coming out of the club walking on the street desperately looking for a toilet. Finally she finds the bathroom and sits down on the closet, all the time facing back to the audience. The props: toilet paper and magazine to read. While she is sitting on the closet she wraps off the toilet paper to sneeze her nose and place the magazine on her laps to sniff in the cocaine. The sound and body language do not indicate that she is doing drugs but reading and sneezing her nose into the magazines paper for instance. After she used a toilet paper she rolls it down across the stage up to the audience. He is coming out of the audience and rolling the toilet paper back to her while she is following the toilet paper towards him by sniffing the cocaine. He is a man who has been in love with her but everything went so far and his frustration of being unhappy is taking his patience over. He tries to help her by taking her away from drugs. She is allowing him to drag her out of the toilet and messed up life until they start fighting against each other. The strong, physical dance performance of couple's fight takes place. She dies and he replaces her by sitting on the closet facing the audience this time and copping exactly the same action of hers from the beginning but this time everything is obvious. He drops the toilette paper roll, which ends up in the audience, or more extremely he throws it at the audience and the whole paper rolls crosses over others heads. Black out....end

Eventually I had to stick to the only one small part of it and I focused on below scenery.
A drank woman enters the space in high heels, short casual dress; make up and hair messed up, wearing a male jacket (which recalls the male presence and his absence in the meantime). She hardly can walk and with her unstable paste she reaches the wall and continues moving laterally across it falling and rising still being supported by the wall. As soon as she's got tired she ends up on the toilet (chair). She hardly can keep her upper body straight up and she continues falling and rising up her upper body. She grabs the toilet paper an throws it towards the audience, sniffing in cocaine (not literally) she wraps her in and desperately wants to free herself from the paper while she is staked to the chair. She moves with the chair, falls down and continues rolling on the floor with the chair and kicking of the toilet paper. She throws away the chair and desperately collapses in agony on the floor...
It's a powerful and destructive scene with strong elements of movement reinforced by vocal sound of voices and noises recorded during the rehearsal.

For the trio I'm working on now I kept the initial intention with more general approach and I developed it into the piece where the main protagonist is the despair and frustration, the characters of performers are none.





RHUL: CRITIQUE, JP, LONDON 26TH JUNE 2011

Royal Holloway University of London and Jasmin Vardimon Company
Postgraduate Certificate in Physical Theatre for Actors and Dancers 2010-11


The creation of my work is based on fear which one evokes within it's own unhappiness and frustration of being unable to live in the society. Despite of it the main topic is violence, aggression, weakness and total mental and physical devastation. The main protagonist is a fear, addressed by 3 performers representing the society's concept of loneliness and luck of confidence to survive. The frustration is shown by one's nightmare. Through the real time projection the images of different faces of desperation are pictured during the performance. Alive physical movement and recorded noises are part of the show.

My original inspiration for the piece came from the book entitled ‘The road of lost innocence’ by Somaly Mam [1]. Quoting from the book: ‘When I close my eyes I see the physical tortures again. I prefer them to the psychological ones, like those inflicted when I was told my family or my collaborators would be killed. But even so, my eyes close and blows and kicks are there. Remembering makes you want to die, but you’re not allowed to die. You want to disappear, but you can’t disappear.’
It was also influenced by my traveling experiences around South East Asia, where I visited the orphanages of sexually abused children, who ended up with mental illness issues.
Following these ideas, the initial intention of the piece was to highlight depravation of women who grew up in Cambodia, and the life stages they had to face in order to survive after some of them are sold to brothels as children.
When I was working on the first task of the course, which was the solo composition, I realized that areas of mental and physical abuse are as disturbing as sexual abuse. It led me to believe that there must be a bigger problem of desperation and fear originating from different psychosocial aspects such as family’s pathology, social background, drugs and alcohol addictions. During additional reading on the subject (e.g. [5]) it became clear that psyche can be influenced negatively even in the modern society which is highly demanding and driven by ambitious goals. For example, it is believed that when the desire to success and expectation arise not everybody can keep up with the pressure, which results in an increase of drug and alcohol consumption, and even enlargers suicide rate.
The whole “package of unhappiness” caused by whatever circumstances can make the society under valuated and affect the self-esteem of many, and thus lead to social and mental disaster.

I came with the idea of the piece a quite long time ago when I was working on the previous task (solo) and I managed to develop it from 5 to 15mins with desire of taking it much further up to at least 1 hour piece (will be carried on under my dance company name: Jawaf Dance Theatre).

During the creative process of ‘Lost in Transition’ I had got very clear vision of tools I am going to use to make it flow. I set up few tasks to begin with in order to create the solo movement, developed later on into the trio. I played with the unison, cannon, dynamics and spacing. I didn’t want to create separated characters; I wanted to have one main character of fear, despair, illusion, frustration, depression, mental and physical distortion due to the abuse. I addressed in the choreography the emotions of hypothetical women who are mirroring the lost soul of a human being. The performers don’t have their own identity but represent the global one, which calls the fear.

The rehearsals were developing smoothly with the common interest of performers and director to embody the theme and make it comfortable to perform. The collaboration and relationships between director and dancers were very tight and personal; it speeded up the process of chorographical development. The use of props such a rolling toilet paper (sniffing the imaginative cocaine on top of it), throwing heels shoes across the stage, putting on and taking off jackets, served to highline the cruel reality of the theme: violence, aggression and addiction.

The music was also a result of the conscious choice, the first track I edited myself by using an acoustic sound of electronic music fused with people’s noises recorded earlier. It worked pretty well with a scene from the toilet, as due to technical reasons we couldn’t get any life sound coming out of there. The second choice of the Hofesh Schecter’s music came only recently when I saw at The Place Hofesh Shechter Dance Company’s dancers choreographed by different choreographers. This was the time to apply his music, as I needed something strong to emphasize the pain and sufferance.
Initially I wanted to use the counts to make clarity of movement to the music, but finally I gave it up as I found it much more challenging to create a completely new piece each time it was rehearsed or performed. It reminded me of the Cunningham’s collaboration with John Cage where he applied the chance procedures where dancers weren’t dancing to the music but with the music.
I was trying to set up the unison, cannon, different dynamics in the finale but it didn’t work out and I was relived when decided to let performers feel each other, in order to follow the emotions, derived from the intended theme.

The use of the real time projection from the toilet was to put an impact on the audience by something disgusting, which was also emphasized by other two performers on the stage, who were seated on the imaginative closet, ’sniffing the cocaine’ and cleaning their bottoms with toilet paper. I wasn’t ashamed of being disgusting. I wish we all could have been even more as the result of being completely lost.
In the first act I made a conscious decision of spacing, even if I was aware of fact that to show unison was almost impossible, considering a big distance between performers. I mean the initial scene where on the front wall appeared the projection from the toilette with one performer and on the sidewalls were two other performers seated quite far away from each other. I considered spacing them in the middle of the stage but I made the final decision of using the spotlights to underline their solos followed by trio on the opposite walls sides. It didn’t bother me that the audience will not be able to see the unison as the performers are so distanced from each other. It wasn’t the case; I didn’t want to set it up either, as my main aim was not to put any restrictions on the way dancers move. I decided to set up choreographically the dance phrases in such a way that they will not be over rehearsed to not loose the spontaneity and character of performers movement. As performers didn’t have any characters, though I wanted to keep their individual and personal way of expression on stage.

I am glad of the chorographical process and performance, however this is the only draft of the whole production I would like to develop. I’d like to fuse the physical/dance theatre with martial arts. This concept is for at least 1-hour piece with additional involvement of multimedia such as life music, narratives, real time and recorded projection. The intention will be extended by different forms of human being aspects followed by various life stages and it will touch the aging context of reaching the full maturity of one’s personal and intellectual development within today’s society. For the initial scene of the new production I plan to use the underwater footage to link the other criteria of the intended script’s layers. The rest will be reveled on the performance’s launch in February 2012.



BIBLIOGRAPHY:

1) Mam, Somaly. The road of lost innocence
2) http://nashville.momslikeme.com/members/JournalActions.aspx?g=247022&m=5458866&grpcat=
3) http://www.theplace.org.uk/?lid=8669
4) http://www.urbantulsa.com/gyrobase/Content?oid=26519
5) Rogers, Carl (1961). On becoming a person: A therapist's view of psychotherapy. London: Constable





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'LOST IN TRANSITION;

www.jawafdancetheatre.com
choreography Joanna Puchala
performers Lindsey Jayane Covell, Yoohee Yang, Joanna Puchala
music Hofesh Schechter Company


The main reason to survive is to not commit the moral crime of suicide. However the moral crime has been almost committed by rejecting the faith for rights to live. The shadow of unknown and illusion instead of bringing a hope goes in the opposite direction and brings the threat instead. The threat of loneliness and outsider's approach devastates one's psyche and provokes despair. Living in the world of having a lot of choices and possibilities of each one identity, a human being gets lost. One becomes insensitive towards feelings and thoughts in order to follow the crowd


PERFORMANCE FRIDAY 24TH JUNE 2011


ROYAL HOLLOWAY UNIVERSITY OF LONDON EGHAM HILL EGHAM TW20 0EX BOILER HOUSE

Irland 20-26 April 2011

We started our journal as usual almost running after the easy bus: baker street-stansted. Of course my partner didn't manage his time properly and traditionally we were prying to get on the plane London-Dublin. Dublin is such a little London with lovely dockland. We've been hosted by really nice polish woman who works for the biggest corporation here in Irland the Google and lives along the Liffey (river) where my lovely partner unexpectedely landed up. We took the car and drove around western coast of Irland. As soon as we happened in Cliften we went for 2,5h walk at the national park of Moher. We climed the mountain which hight wasn't specified and ended up in our first accommodation - managed by who -a polish guy. It looked in fact as a polish hostel (schronisko). It was very basic but very charmfull with separated rooms makes and females in different ones. At least it was warm inside of the room. There was no hot water in a sink but we've got a luxury of having a hot shower. We gathered together and with other guests at the living room fire place's, which made the whole experience much more cosy and unique. I couldn't follow asleep until the sunrise at 5.30am when i dreamt for 2 h. I greeted the sun by walking up the hill behind the house. There was one poor little sheep dead and others alive spread over the fields. I've prepared a share breakfast for 3 of us made of the recollection of the food eventually found in the cupboards of the youth hostel (Ben slottery). It was a nice combination of cornflakes, toasts and jam, milk, tea, coffee and our own fruits. We were ready to began our second day trip to Annascaul. We stayed at Adrianne B&B accommodation - next to the south pole pub where we celebrated with locals in accompaniment of irlish sea music the ester. Of course in the whlle Irland there is not such a tradition of Easter as in Poland but Irish community definitely knows how to enjoy their life. Everyone here is relaxed and very kind. You walk in the shop and they smile, you ask for taxi and it's already there waiting for you. Everything is predictible in a nice way. You feel comfortable and chilled out. We did a 2,5 h track of 20km which took us eventually 6 hours. It was such a picturesque walk around the mountings and along the sea cost. Eventually after exhausting 6 hours walk we managed to get to the Dingle - a fishing town. Due to our starvation as we've already purchased a day before a nice smocked Irish salmon we had to head back to the car by cub and go to the spacious beach to eat our dinner. We left the food including the irish cheesecake for the whole day in the car exposed at the sun. Nobody except myself wanted to take a risk of eating that desert so I had got a half kilo of this beauty to swell in and digest. Nothing has happened I survived. Next day of the trip we went to Killarney where we drove a 170km kerry ring. It was pretty but boring being sited all the time in the car and eventually getting off to the sea side. Though whenever there is the sea I am happy. We stayed 2 nights at the b&b crystal springs (Italian style). Last night after a huge battle of finding appropriate restaurant we ended up in the local fishery bar next to the Killeny town - Kilorglin. I was convinced when checking the menu earlier on I saw a fish soup and fish dishes. But we ended up having a vegetable soup eventually followed by pure with mix of fish and cheese. The dinner was on me as I chose the wrong place. At the end everyone enjoyed it. Locally there was not much to explore in terms of pubs with life Irish music. We found a really nice 19 th century pub where we almost died because of the dead moods;(

and here I am ... out of blue

And here I am ... As usual in the midle of the storm and emotional roller coster. Nothing I have never experienced before, usual stuff - resistance towards the reality. I clearly can see where I am going like never before but I am struggling to persuade it to others who I care for. Is it always the case of being convinced about something and being unable to fight for it. Actually I think I've got enough power to make not only mine but someone's else life easier and more stimulating no matters what. I just don't know if I should push. I've never have to fight for my life's happiness, I've always let it be, but I feel like I should put a little bit of afford to make things happen. If someone whom I expect to do it can not because is scared I need to convince the whole world that's right decision.
The time is passing by and I am in the emotional loop which redirects me all over again into the same point of fear about tomorrow. How is the present moment, I can not remember it anymore. I've got obsessed by the future and and can not just enjoy now and here. I'm having an internal battle with myself about facts which don't exist, in fact they are only illusions. I keep coming back on the spiral of never ending sufferance. I hardy can reneged how is to smile again, if I do it's not real. I want to love unconditional and offer what I can without expecting anything in return. I must be strong to handle my pain and overcome it by doing something constructive. I'm working hard without much result, every day I convince myself that's right. I don't have daubs about it, it just takes ages to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

How movement therapy influences the brain physiology (JP essay 25th March '11)

JP, London 25th March 2011

The ways we move, breath, eat influence our way of thinking. We can stimulate our nervous system and influence our brain by engaging our body and mind. Through the movement and the Oxygen/Carbon Dioxide exchange we can change our thinking patterns, which eventually lead to the brain structure change (Neuroplasticity). Before I move on to the neuroscience I would like briefly mention what's the main focus of this essay. The main interest of my research is a movement in general with strong emphasis on dance. I would like to refer to different types of movement therapy particularly with input on Dance Movement Therapy and its impact on the brain function and its structure. How movement influences our habits, thinking patterns, which area of the brain gets affected by several behaviors and which are the alternative ways to improve mental health by balancing our emotions. As I mentioned earlier our brain structure is changeable. The neuroplasticity refers to the ability of the human brain to change as a result of one's experience, that the brain is 'plastic' and 'malleable'. The discovery of this feature of the brain is rather modern; the previous belief amongst scientists was that the brain does not change after the 'critical period' of infancy (a limited time in which an event can occur, usually to result in some kind of transformation.) If the organism does not receive the appropriate stimulus during this "critical period", it may be difficult, ultimately less successful, or even impossible, to develop some functions later in life.[1]

To establish a framework for conceptualizing the research and its behavioral implications, I begin with a simplified review of the geography of the central nervous system (CNS), that is, the brain and spinal cord. With a focus primarily on the brain, concentration is on its general configuration and functions, specifically, common basic formations and neuronal network systems in addition to some general information concerning neurotransmission.
Brain consists of hemispheres, cortices and lobes. Neural landmarks help differentiate and identify specific regions of the brain, such as ridges (gyri), grooves or depressions between the ridges (sulci) and grooves even deeper than sulci (fissures).
The neocortex, a feature distinguishing humans from lower forms of animals, endows us with the potential for complex cognitive and oral language function. As the prime center of operation, the CNS processes and controls all human behaviors, and varies little from person to person in terms of form, organization and function. The hemispheres - joined together by the corpus callosum, a large collection of nerve fibers that maintains neuronal communication between them—constitute the largest portion of the human brain.
The outermost layer, the cerebral cortex, is divided into four lobes: frontal, parietal, temporal and occipital. Deeply embedded in the cerebrum (i.e., the hemispheres containing the four lobes) are three smaller regions. These comprise the nuclei of the basil ganglia (a subcortical mass of nerve fibers that deals with complex habitual movement), the hippocampus (its name indicating a seahorse-like shape) and the amygdala (meaning almond-shaped). The latter two, which make up part of the limbic system are commonly considered the “emotional brain” or the “seat of emotions,” regions that will be addressed more fully below.[2]
Beneath, and to the rear of cerebrum lies the somewhat conically shaped brain stem, a tri-part structure of upper, middle and lower sections. The upper brain stem—sometimes referred to as the diencephalon—contains the thalamus, hypothalamus and pineal gland. The middle portion is simply known as the midbrain, while the lower brain stem is composed of two formations, the pons and medulla oblongata. Behind the brain stem and just above the spinal cord, rests the cerebellum, a regulator of posture, balance and motor coordination.[3]
The frontal lobes of the neocortex as indicated by its name, is located anterior to the other three lobes referred to above. Considered the thinking part of the brain, it is associated with cognition (particularly the most anterior portion, the prefrontal cortex), i.e., judgment, planning, abstract thinking, problem solving and initiative, as well as personality and behavior. The pre-motor and motor cortex, the hind section of the frontal lobes, deal with coordinated motor actions and speech articulation. Interestingly, each side of the motor cortex controls muscle movement on the opposite side of the body. As a result, damage to the right hemisphere impairs movement on the left side of the body and vice versa. In terms of speech, damage to the lower left side (Broca’s area) causes impaired articulation (expressive aphasia) while damage to the lower right lobe leads to problematic spatial judgment. Here then are discrete exemplars of differences in function between the two sides.
As explicated by Luppino and Rizzolatti (2000) the prefrontal motor areas of the cerebral cortex are responsible for converting incoming sensory information into motor instructions or actions.[4] Similarly, this area is purported to mediate other complex behaviors, including imitation or awareness of actions performed by others - “associative motor learning.” In other words, within the pre-motor cortex is a class of neurons actively engaged in the process of simulation. [5]
Immediately next to the motor area strip, the parietal lobes extend from a central location toward the posterior part of the cerebrum. The primary sensory and secondary areas of this lobe—those neurons closest to the motor strip and fanning posteriorally—are responsive to body sensations of temperature, touch, pressure and pain. In addition, aspects of body scheme and language are associated with the parietal lobes. In fact, dysfunction in the lower region is affiliated with reading disability.[6]
In the lower sections of the cerebrum, behind and below the frontal and parietal areas, lie the temporal lobes. While its upper section mediates auditory function, the lower portion deals with memory. Consequently, injury to these areas may cause hearing and/or memory impairments, as will damage to a particular section of the lower left temporal lobe (Wernikes’s Area) may result in the inability to comprehend spoken language (i.e., receptive aphasia). The temporal nuclei are, in addition, believed to be involved with multisensory integration of touch, vision and hearing.[7]
Occupying the hind- and lowermost section of the cortex, the occipital lobes seem to emerge out of the dorsal sides of the parietal and temporal lobes. As the primary visual center, it is directly linked to the eyes via the optic nerves. Damage to these nerves may range from visual impairment to blindness. The more generalized association area of the lobes is devoted to higher-level interpretation or analysis of visual information.[8]
This somewhat triangular structure within the cerebral cortex—insula, occasionally referred to as the central lobe or the Island of Reil—lies hidden within the convolutions of deep neuronal fissures. It extends beneath regions of the frontal, parietal and temporal lobes and behind a section of the hippocampus. The insula is associated with visceral functions and integration of autonomic information.[9]
Deep within the cerebrum, between the neo-cortical lobes and the brain stem sits a neural complex known as the limbic system, the name indicating a C-shaped or rim-like structure. This phylogenetically old neuronal formation is common to most animal species and generally identified with emotion and behavior. Importantly, its functions are mediated through complex axonal connections to the neocortex and the brain stem. Likewise it has extensive neural hook-ups with the basil ganglia, a sub-cortical area that, according to Marsden (1986), has some basic ability to “integrate” thought and emotion in motor behavior.
Within the scope of the limbic neural network are the amygdala, hippocampus, hypothalamus, thalamus. They range from regulation of the autonomic nervous and endocrine systems to survival mechanisms of flight-fight–freeze. Importantly, the limbic brain is regarded as the home of primary emotions, such as fear, anger, sadness, joy disgust, as well as aggression. The amygdala, in particular, is associated with fear, pleasure and aggression.[10] A point of emphasis is the role the hippocampus plays in the imprinting of recent memory.
The brain stem - the lower level portion of the brain receives incoming stimuli from sensory receptors located in the various sense organs of the body creating a chain reaction. Various electro-chemical discharges are transmitted along the sensory spinal tracts to the brain stem, the conduit to higher centers. At this point, the brain stem serves as a filtering station, determining whether incoming impulses will be inhibited or potentiated for further neural networking. The transmission cycle is completed when these electro-chemical discharges exit the CNS via the effector (motor) tracts of the spinal cord where they activate targeted muscle groups in the form of an action, thought or behavior.[11]
Equally significant, the brain stem plays a crucial role in basic survival functions, controlling or mediating vegetative operations such as swallowing, respiration, heart rate and blood pressure, and aspects of consciousness and arousal states.[12]
Innervation of the CNS is generated by electro-chemical impulses. A nervous system lacking such enabling trans- mission within the complex of neural networks would be tantamount to a car without a battery and fuel. A dual pronged operation, the process begins with an electrical discharge from the cell body of a neuron that travels down its axon (i.e., branch-like extension) to its juncture point (terminus), potentiating the release of a neurochemical substance—a neu- rotransmitter, a chemical messenger required to transmit the neuronal impulse across a synapse. This tiny bridge-like gap between neurons is, in essence, a conduit of symbiotic connectivity (Moore, 1969). The chemical transmitters, in turn, serve to trigger other cells carrying affiliated compounds. In effect, an intricate relay is established throughout the brain for the transmission of sensory inputs and their consequent motor (efferent) outputs (Kolb & Wishaw, 1985).
Unlike the story of the blind men who inaccurately perceived the elephant based on the particular part each touched, the brain cannot be conceived as a collection of parts independently driven. From highly specialized zones to diffuse cortical association areas, the brain operates as a collective, its global mission, the outward manifestation of meaningful actions and behaviors rather than isolated muscle movements (Berrol, 1992).

To reassume the brain consists of nerve cells (neurons) and glial cells. Glial cells, sometimes called neuroglia or simply glia are non-neuronal cells that maintain homeostasis, form myelin, and provide support and protection for the brain's neurones, commonly known as the glue of the nervous system. They have 4 founctions: to surround neurons and hold them in place, to supply nutrients and oxygen to neurons, to insulate one neuron from another, and to destroy pathogens and remove dead neurones, they do modulate neurotransmission).
Neurogenesis is a birth of neurones, the process by which neurons are generated. Most active during pre-natal development, the new neurons continue to be produced into adulthood, were highly plastic. This belief is being challenged by new findings, suggesting all areas of the brain are plastic even after childhood.[13]

Decades of research have now shown that substantial changes occur in the lowest neocortical processing areas, and that these changes can profoundly alter the pattern of neuronal activation in response to experience. According to the theory of neuroplasticity, experience can actually change both the brain's physical structure (anatomy) and functional organization (physiology) from top to bottom. Neuroscientists are presently engaged in a reconciliation of critical period studies demonstrating the immutability of the brain after development with the more recent research showing how the brain can, and does, change.

As the experience changes the brain why the movement couldn't be that experience?
Taking in consideration the amount of biochemical reactions taking place in our body and brain due to the movement we basically state that our mental health can be actually controlled, influenced by our physical (movement, dance...) and psychological aspect (movement meditation) and lead to mental health improvement. Of course each case is different and we are talking about single traumatic episodes rather than complex. Thought we still can change the brain function in any other even more severe cases such a PTSD/ Bipolar. As we developed during the years a symptom of rational deficit and emotional arousal our brain structure has changed and imbalanced. In order to get back the control of our negative thoughts we develop different movement and mindfulness techniques such as: Expressive arts therapy, dance meditation, body-mind centering - somatic experiencing, Feldenkrais , Laban Movment Analysis (LMA) and Dance/Movement Therapy (DMT). I would like to highline the nature of these therapeutic methods especially DMT in relation to the nervous system, brain changes and the impact on mental health.

Expressive arts therapy is the practice of using imagery, storytelling, dance, music, drama, poetry, movement, dream work, and visual arts together, in an integrated way, to foster human growth, development, and healing. The reason I mention this particular movement therapy is the documentary film ‘I Remember Better When I Paint is’ proving it’s aim. This French documentary film is about the positive impact of art and other creative therapies in people with Alzheimer's disease and how these approaches can change the way the disease is viewed by society. The film examines the way creative arts bypass the limitations of dementia disorders such as Alzheimer's and shows how patients' still-vibrant imaginations are strengthened through therapeutic art. The documentary includes interviews with renowned neurologists who explain how creative activities engage areas of the brain that are not damaged by the disease and thus reawaken a sense of personality, identity and dignity.[14]

Dancemeditation is a form of moving meditation similar to Tai Chi. Many people who have practiced these disciplines for many years believe the mental and physical training required to do so has enhanced their mental and physical health. There is a lot of sound scientific evidence to support this belief. Scientific literature indicates that any form of meditation produces positive changes to brain function, including stress reduction. Some form of moderately strenuous bodywork (yoga, Tai Chi, martial arts) is usually part of most meditation traditions. Even sitting meditation, which is purely mental, requires the body. If maintained for long periods of time, the cross-legged sitting posture utilized by such practices is a very demanding position for the knee and sacroiliac joints, as well as the internal organs. Expert sitting meditators probably would test out as having good core muscle strength. The difference between moving forms of meditation and sitting meditation is the metabolic requirements of each task for the body and the motor programs required of the brain and skeleto-muscular systems. Sitting meditation requires one motor program and fewer demands on the cardiovascular system. Sitting meditation requires the brain. Moving meditation requires the same modifications to the cardiovascular system as moderate aerobic activity. These modifications support the increased energy demands by the muscles, nerves, and organs required to execute movements.
Dancemeditation also includes sitting and other static practices. Sitting meditation causes changes in pathways between neurons living in the brain. The brain is composed of many specialized cell groups that create and underlie our experience of emotion, proprioception, thought, memory, and action. Changes to the thickness of portions of the brain required for metacognition, reflections on reflection, open presence, attention to somatosensation, and other forms of meditation are seen in brain scans of individuals who have meditated habitually for greater than 25 years. Dancemeditation could be expected to produce such changes as well.[15]

Somatic Experiencing is a form of therapy aimed at relieving and resolving the symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and other mental and physical trauma-related health problems by focusing on the client’s perceived body sensations (or somatic experiences). Symptoms of trauma are the effect of a dysregulation of the autonomic nervous system (ANS). It further postulates that the ANS has an inherent capacity to self-regulate that is undermined by trauma, and that the inherent capacity to self-regulate can be restored by the procedures of Somatic Experiencing.[16] Somatic Experiencing attempts to promote awareness and release of physical tension that proponents believe remains in the body in the aftermath of trauma. They believe this occurs when the survival responses (which can take the form of orienting, fight, flight or "freeze") of the ANS are aroused, but are not fully discharged after the traumatic situation has passed.[17]

The Feldenkrais method is a somatic educational system that allows the body to move and function more efficiently and comfortably. Its goal is to re-educate the nervous system and improve motor ability. The system can accomplish much more, relieving pressure on joints and weak points, and allowing the body to heal repetitive strain injuries. Continued use of the method can improve mental health, relieve pain and lead to higher standards of achievement in sports, the martial arts, dancing and other physical disciplines.[18]
Feldenkrais gave the name "Awareness Through Movement" to a series of demonstrations he devised as he was learning to walk normally with a seriously damaged knee. His lessons were intended to provide concrete directions for attending to and learning about the physical experience associated with the movements. The goal was to increase the clients' awareness of the mechanical details and the sensation, opening the possibility of actively choosing new patterns of movement. Feldenkrais taught that changes in our ability to move are inseparable from changes in our conscious perception of ourselves as embodied. He said that changes in the physical experience could be described as changes in our internal self image, which can be conceived as the mapping of the motor cortex to the body. Feldenkrais felt that activity in the motor cortex played a key role in proprioception (the sense of body position). He aimed to clarify and work therapeutically with this relationship, with instructions that involved both specific movement instructions and invitations to introspection.[19] Clearly conceived of the process of learning as producing new pathways, associations, and conncetions in the central nervous system. The studies of this technique done by Kolt and Netz proved that through the practice people reduce the anxiety, depressive mood and improve the motor imaginary balance and mobility measures. [20]

Laban Movement Analysis (LMA) is a way and language for interpreting, describing, visualizing and notating all ways of human movement. Created by Rudolf Laban, LMA draws on his theories of effort and shape to describe, interpret and document human movement. Used as a tool by dancers, athletes, physical and occupational therapists, it is one of the most widely used systems of human movement analysis. LMA is a language used to describe and annotate dancing movements and is divided in components: Body, Space, Shape and Effort. Despite its general framework is widely used in physical and mental therapy.
Labanotation is a record of how we move so that we can do the same thing again and again. The symbols are placed on a vertical staff, the horizontal dimension of the staff represents the symmetry of the body, and the vertical dimension time. The location of the symbol on the staff defines the body part it represents. The centre line of the staff represents the centre line of the body, symbols on the right represent the right side of the body, symbols on the left, the left side.[21]


Dance Movement Therapy (DMT) is the psychotherapeutic use of movement to promote emotional, cognitive, physical, and social integration of individuals. Is practiced in mental health, rehabilitation, medical, educational, forensic settings, nursing homes, day care centers, disease prevention, and health promotion programs. The dance/movement therapist focuses on movement behavior as it emerges in the therapeutic relationship. Expressive, communicative, and adaptive behaviors are used for group and individual treatment. Body movement as the core component of dance simultaneously provides the means of assessment and the mode of intervention for dance/movement therapy.[22]
The theory of DMT is based upon the idea that the body and mind are inseparable and rests on certain theoretical principles. These are:
▪ Body and mind interact, so that a change in movement will affect total functioning
▪ Movement reflects personality
▪ The therapeutic relationship is mediated at least to some extent non-verbally, for example through the therapist mirroring the client’s movement
▪ Movement contains a symbolic function and as such can be evidence of unconscious process
▪ Movement improvisation allows the client to experiment with new ways of being
▪ DMT allows for the recapitulation of early object relationships by virtue of the largely non-verbal mediation of the latter.
Through the unity of the body, mind, and spirit, DMT provides a sense of wholeness to all individuals.

The creative process has four stages, which occur during DMT. Each stage contains a smaller set of goals which correlate to the larger purpose of DMT. The stages and goals of DMT vary with each individual. Although the stages are progressive, the stages are usually revisited several times throughout the entire DMT process. The four stages are:
Preparation: the warm-up stage, safety is established
Incubation: relaxed, let go of conscious control, movements become symbolic
Illumination: meanings become apparent, can have positive and negative effects.
Evaluation: discuss significance of the process, prepare to end therapy. [23]

DMT can be used to heal serious disorders and diseases. Although DMT is promoted to reduce stress and center the body, this therapy is very effective in helping to heal other disabilities and diseases. Examples of these include:
▪ Autism: therapists connect on a sensory-motor level, provides a sense of acceptance and expands skills and cognitive abilities, increases maturity
▪ Learning Disabilities: develops better organizational skills, learns/experiences control and choice, higher self confidence, new inspirations to learn
▪ Mental Retardation: improves body image, social skills, coordination, and motor skills, promotes communication
▪ Deaf and Hearing Impaired: reduces feelings of isolation, provides inspiration for relationships
▪ Blind and Visually Impaired: improves body image, motor skills, and personal awareness
▪ Physically Handicapped: improves motor skills and body image, provides a way to communicate and express emotions
▪ Elderly: provides social interaction, expression, and exercise, alleviates fears of loneliness and isolation
▪ Eating Disorders: alters distorted body images which helps end destructive behaviors, discovers symbolic meanings behind disorder/food
▪ PTSD: weaves together past and present through symbolism in a “safe place” to confront painful memories
▪ Parkinson's Disease: uses rhythm to help reduce body dysfunctions which improves motor abilities, balance, and use of limbs
▪ Holistic Birth Preparation: implores relaxation techniques to reduce anxiety, learn breathing techniques and release energy, builds confidence to help cope with labor, birth and early parenting.[24]

I would like to mention about the research done on: 'Neuroscience meets dance/movement therapy: Mirror neurons, the therapeutic process and empathy'. The recent discovery by neuroscientists of mirror neurons has launched a spate of scientific investigations. A keystone of the therapeutic process of dance/movement therapy (D/MT), the concept of mirroring is very important subjects of neuroscience. An interactive phenomenon, studies are revealing that the identical sets of neurons can be activated in an individual who is simply witnessing another person performing a movement as the one actually engaged in the action or the expression of some emotion or behavior. The domains of behavior currently under investigation span motoric, psychosocial and cognitive functions, including specific psychosocial issues related to attunement, attachment theory and empathy. Although D/MT embodies empathic forms, until recently their neurological underpinnings have not been studied. The research addresses the theoretical constructs of the mirror matching mechanism and empathy, and the implications for D/MT. Beginning with the basic mapping of important central nervous system structures and their behavioral functions, the focus shifts to the mirror neurons with respect to the formative years vis-à-vis the developmental issues of empathy—attachment, attunement, social cognition and morality. [25]

As the movement is our vital tool to be able to function mentally and physically we need to be aware of it. It’s a source of our energy, which makes us coexist in the society and use our mental and physiological capacity. As I mentioned before we can change our thinking patterns not only through the way we move but also influence our brain structure change if we apply appropriate tools explained above. I based my research on different cognitive movement therapies analysis related to the brain function and mental health aspects. In some of them I haven’t found the evidence of scientific research how they change the brain’s function and improve mental health. And this could be a starting point of my own future research. For a time being I used the available tools to give a general overview on different movement therapies and their influence on the nervous system structure. How they affect some regions of the brain, especially the right side of prefrontal cortex responsible for our emotions, which is the main area of dysfunction in mental health area of psychotherapy. I started form the brain structure to give some biochemical evidence of our psychological and psychosomatic behaviors, followed by analysis of chosen movement therapeutic approaches such a: expressive arts therapy, somatic analysis, dancemeditation, Feldenkrais technique, Laban Analysis and concluded by Dance Movement Therapy. As I found the most evidence of movement implications on our behaviors and nervous system supported by neuroscientists’ research about neurons mirroring - DMT has been my main focus to prove the theory of brain changes caused by movement. As we are only in the initial stage of the analysis how different parts of our body through movement can influence the brain structure and our well being, we can yet give some evidence of neuroscience’s research proving this theory, which partially have been described overall this essay.



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[1] Siegler, Robert (2006). How Childred Develop, Exploring Child Develop Student Media Tool Kit & Scientific American Reader to Accompany How Children Develop. New York: Worth Publishers. ISBN 0716761130

[2] C.F. Berrol / The Arts in Psychotherapy 33 (2006) 302–315 Basic structures of the brain (from Restak, with modifications, 1984, p. 13)


[3] Bloom, Lazerson, & Hofstadter, 1985; Diamond et al., 1985; Kolb & Wishaw, 1985; Nolte, 1981; Restak, 1984
[4] C.F. Berrol / The Arts in Psychotherapy 33 (2006) 302–315. Basic structures of the limbic system (Restak, 1984, p. 15)
[5] Bloom et al., 1985; Diamond et al., 1985; Luppino & Rizzolatti, 2000; Restak, 1984
[6] Bloom et al., 1985; Diamond et al., 1985; Luppino & Rizzolatti, 2000; Restak, 1984
[7] C.F. Berrol / The Arts in Psychotherapy 33 (2006) 302–315
[8] Bloom et al., 1985; Diamond et al., 1985; Luppino & Rizzolatti, 2000; Restak, 1984
[9] Diamond et al., 1985 (Gallese, 2003, 2005a; Rizzolatti, Fogassi, & Gallese, 2001; Wicker et al., 2003)
[10] Bloom et al., 1985; Diamond et al., 1985; Nolte, 1981; Restak, 1984
[11] Bloom et al., 1985; Diamond et al., 1985; Nolte, 1981; Restak, 1984
[12] Bloom et al., 1985; Diamond et al., 1985; Nolte, 1981; Restak, 1984
[13] Rakic, P. (January 2002). "Neurogenesis in adult primate neocortex: an evaluation of the evidence". Nature Reviews Neuroscience 3 (1): 65–71.doi:10.1038/nrn700. PMID 11823806

[14] http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1595878/


[15] Powers, S.K. & Howley, E.T. (2004). Exercise physiology. Theory and application to fitness and performance, 5th edition. Boston: McGraw Hill
[16] Levine, Peter A.: Healing Trauma. A Pioneering Program for Restoring the Wisdom of Your Body incl.CD. Sounds True, Inc., Boulder, CO, 2005
[17] Macnaughton, Ian (editor): Body, Breath & Consciousness - a Somatics Anthology. North Atlantic Books, Berkeley, 2004
[18] http://iffresearchjournal.org/volume/1/bearman
[19] Doige, Norman (2007). The Brain That Changes Itself: Stories of Personal Triumph from the Frontiers of Brain Science. Viking. ISBN 067003830X. The Brain That Changes Itselfsite.
[20]http://books.google.com/books?hl=en&lr=&id=s6fwPPJjXT4C&oi=fnd&pg=PA227&dq=Feldenkrais+Method+and+neuroscience&ots=_kevaes0GG&sig=yFXNVGLgSLjroTEXQOxa_gNDbCU#v=onepage&q=Feldenkrais%20Method%20and%20neuroscience&f=false


[21] Newlove, J. (1993) Laban for Actors and Dancers: Putting Laban's Movement Theory into Practice, Nick Hern Books, London. ISBN 978-1854591609
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Morning Joanna. I couldn't make yoga this morning because i am working a new job for the next 5 months. It means i start earlier and i can't come to yoga before. I also can't make the yoga dance because i finish later! It's very annoying because i love your classes so much. You're such a great teacher, i really feel like i've progressed in yoga with you.

Anyway have a great day and i hope to see you tomorrow evening.
Take care
D x

JP review: '7734' Jasmin Vardimon Company, London 25th November 2011, Saddler's Wells, London


I was born near by Auschwitz 2 generations after the Holocaust. I’ve spent my childhood and teenage hood by listening to the stories of my grand parents about the concentration camp. I’ve visited several times the place of massive Nazis murderer. Each time when I was entering the gate of genocide I was experiencing very uncomfortable feeling of nausea. As soon as I accessed the auditorium of Sadler’s Wells on Thursday evening 26th November 2010 in London, the stage covered by pile of clothes recalled very sad memories from that time of my previous Holocaust’s visit. I could sense with each part of my body and my skin the history of Second World War. I could feel the desperation of Jews who were trapped into the concentration camp to pay the highest price by belonging to their culture, tradition and religion – their life. The contrast shown in ‘7734’ between a normal life (playful, pleasant, cheerful) and a cruel life from that period of 1939-1945 was in my opinion one of the main protagonists of the performance. Me as an audience could perceptively receive the audio and visual effects of dance performance by selected images put into perspective way. For instance the introduction by the conductor, who represents the highest consciousness of the artistic and spiritual world, the harmonic movement of limbs underneath the soft silky sheets was reflecting the beauty of human nature and the peaceful life in itself. Suddenly such an ordinary life becomes disturbed by strong Wagner’s opera tunes recalling the Second World War’s destructive and agonic time. Performers are coming out of the sheets and dipping into them again, appearing, disappearing, rolling, and falling. A dynamic and extremely expressive movement of dancers mirrors the frustration of concentration camp prisoners who are searching for hope of survival. The dramaturgy of arising classical music puts accents on sharp and sudden dynamic of movement. Contrasting soft and peaceful music emphasizes on smooth and playful dance. The drunk people scene is either ironically referred to easy nowadays life or to desperation of sudden death of Holocaust victims. By swapping the characters between the dancers from Nazis to prisoners and the other way around reinforces the performance’s image of the genocide. In extreme circumstances the human nature becomes very egoistic and overwhelmed by fear. People loose their dignity and are ready to sell their soul and became inhumane. I cannot blame them for that, as I don’t know myself how I would behave in certain circumstances. And I hope I will never experience it. The photographer taking the pictures of married couple is using the freedom of his own expression in terms of visual art. He doesn’t want to imitate any one else; he wants to sustain his own point of view and opinion. He is not interested in becoming anyone else, and he doesn’t care if he pictures the defects of human being. He frames only what is essential in his own creation and avoids what he is ‘supposed’ to expose. I think this also refers to the time where people got rid if their own identity in order to save their life.
To summarize I would like to divagate on something which hasn’t occurred to others considering various reviews I went through previously, that in ‘7734’ appeared a moment of liberation by soviets (Russians) after the Second World War - according to the history. The red flag in my opinion represented a symbol of communism, which dominated the Eastern Europe after the war and Poland was one of these countries under the Russians regime. The fake friendship offered by Soviets to Poles ended up by another massive murder of thousands Polish elite from political scene. This factor was only discovered recently by an accidently plane crash with 90 Polish politicians on board including the president Kaczynski. It happened in the same place after 40 years of Polish officers murder by Russians in Katyn (Russia).
The ‘Hell’ of 1939-1945 apparently affected the whole world society from different political, economical, psychological perspectives. Though it’s good to be reminded about the tragedy, which took place in the past to avoid another traumatic experience. Jasmin Vardimen coming back from Jewish background discovered the truth of Holocaust and based her new dance performance on subject which must have affected her personal life as much as it has my own and probably thousands and millions of others. During the performance’s duration I couldn’t take my eyes and mind of incredibly well reconstructed history leaded by movement and verbal expression. I don’t see why the cruel reality shouldn’t be exposed on stage as a dance theatre performance. I think that precise choreography, anticipated by previous research on the subject are the main tools to create a masterpiece of performing art. I believe Jasmin Vardimon succeeded in that. I could clearly read in between the movement lines the intention of choreographer’s reference to such a heavy subject as genocide.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

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Friday, March 18, 2011

Poland 20th January '11

Well, Poland has welcomed me yesterday 20 January '11. I've been running like a crazy to catch my easy bus from Baker Street to Stansted.
Luckily I'm living near by Kings Cross St so impossible becomes very often miracleose like it did yesterday. It's such a wonderful feeling to arrive in my country's local airport and seeing those beautiful faces of my patents welcoming me at the arrivals. It's always very sentimental which equivocates such a strong feeling of belonging to their roots. More I stay away from my country more I become connected to my origins. Saying that I'm not admitting the nostalgic feelings I only sense strong excitement deeply in the button of my tommy. It inspires me to do what I'm passionate about. The creative site of myself is awaken and the limbic site of the brain is fully activated. I can think again and prioritise, stay focused and be in connection with myself.
This year resolutions follow: create my solo dance theatre (on the closet) and develop it into duet with one of the world widely known Richard Alston dance company's dancer; keep working on the LCP quartet: 'Voices 4 Change' against human trafficking in the whole world influenced by Cambodian children sexual slavery; extend duet Imaginary...' with allotropiamovement; take part as an artistic director and dance performer of nyctolopic's choreography in association with allotropiamovement. It makes in total 3 new projects and development of existing 2. It's a hell of work. On top of that complete postgraduate physical theatre in June 2011 with final year performance, finish the yoga therapy certificate for depression and anxiety; set up a yoga for the mind 8 weeks course from April-May 2011, do Pilates teaching certificate June-Aug 2011; intensify Pilates and contemporary dance classes teaching; train with heartcore Pilates for celebrity and athletes and become a full time instructor on annual contract (March). Apply for various dance theatre festivals such a: in Bytom (Poland) June -July; fringe international festival of Edinburgh (Scotland) Aug, Hanover (Germany) and of course Brockley Max festival in London (UK).
And the last thing to organise two yoga retreats in Puglia (South Italy): 4-10 June 2011 eat yoga dance retreat in collaboration with my Italian ex clients and current business partners; 27sept-1oct 2011 singing yoga dance retreat in collaboration with my best yoga therapist friend. And finally in November'11-February'12 I'm planning to across second time Atlantic on my wonderful sailing yacht Ydra2. The route follows: Italy, South Europe, Canaries, Cape Verde islands, Caribbean, South America. Alternatively join the boat by plane in Caribbean in December and sail across Panama's Canal along south America until March'11. I feel like extending it up to one year starting in November '11 and crossing three oceans: Atlantic, Pacific and Indian.

Currently I'm in Poland on the way to ustronie polana to stay for couple of days with my brother and his family who invited me for skiing. As soon as I landed in pyrzowice last night I'd got an invitation to join them. So I did. I've spent 2 days of skiing in Vistula. I haven't been skiing since 4 years after my last time on snowboard in France.

After one day of staying with my parents I went to visit my friends in Warsaw. Quick visit, and catch up with all outstanding stuff. Kids were ill, but at least we've got chance to stay all together as a family. Next day I came back to my family house. My nethews, friends kids, few friends and relatives are always the main aim of my visit in Poland. We went with my mum to the theatre watch polish comedy play of Maria Seweryn (polish well-known director and actress). It was a hell of the comedy. Sitting in the first row allowed us to have great interexchange with actors and the audience, tiny, Cousy and independent Korez theatre in Katowice was very welcoming. We went twice to the cinema to watch 'black swan' and 'kings speech'. Both were really good even thought they've been projected in multi cinema (Silesia city). The time passed by, I hardly managed to catch up with my family and friends. I always feel like it's not enough to come for one or two weeks. I need to dedicate more time to be able to merge again into my roots and be able to express what I really feel. I love my parents deeply and I can not transmit it to them. They miss me and so do I but somehow I struggle to show them how much I love them. Each time it becomes harder and harder to leave and say goodbye. In fact we never say it because we never leave each other....