Tuesday, December 3, 2013

diary 18th April 2011

Sometimes we ask ourselves whats wrong with us. Why aren't we just the way others would accept us to be? Why aren't we in their shoes for change to experience their own pain and needs. Why do we have to go through the same all over again in order to meet the same expectations and the abilities to destroy the emotions that occur us. Why aren't our feelings more straight forward and ready to talk for us and save us? Why our dignity is put on trail and has to be tested each time we are about to get what we really want. Why aren't we equal so the man-man, the woman- woman and the man - woman can carry on with their own wishes and aims without faking the reality. Why do we become judgmental when it comes to intimate feelings. Why do we expect the physical contact if we can only give and receive the spiritual one? Why are we attached to someone if we are lonely anyway. Why do we restrict each other if we are free to do whatever we feel. Why do we make others suffer without any purpose, especially when we really want to do the opposite. Why aren't we loved the way we are. Why should we change for any reason someone or something which is not belonging to us? It's enough to be restricted by political, social and economical reasons, that's why we don't want to be prisoned by any other issues which come from the closest person so important to us. Why before the sun shines the clouds cover it and bring the grey shade on our life. Isn't it just the image of being poor and frustrated, isn't it just an excuse from opening our soul and heart..... I live my dream life without any major limits, I want to offer the best of me to the universe and not expect any think in return. That would be fantastic if we all could do that. We get trapped by our possessive thoughts and don't let them go. They make us slaves of our selves, of our material and mental imperium, of attachment and addiction to whatever is material and can be easily destroyed and detached. When we fall a sleep or read a book, watch the movie, we realise that we can easily detach from the possessive thoughts which make us prisoners of our own desires. What about getting rid of the desires and just purely live the moment in loneliness or in the company of pure energy gifted by the ray of sun radiating on our face into out heart. What's wrong with our self - defence system of becoming addicted to our ego which doesn't let us go when we become sensitive and fragile. We want to control the whole world but if the intention is not pure, we are not going to succeed. Instead we'll be frustrated and miserable because of the rejection. The rejection is the weapon to prove the character strength. We all get familiar with that feeling of luck of acceptance, love and warmness. We have to be aware that if one person goes away, another will come and all over again... There should not be any fear of being left by ourselves because we are lonely anyway, but we are surrounded by beloved people who can share their love with us if we only open ourselves to it. Being in Florida means being exposed on all possible temptation which lead to loose the track of our destiny. Every day we have to remind ourselves what are we here for the reason and if we keep rolling on the same rode nothing is going to district us from the path we are walking on.
My wife just came back yesterday from West Virginia, from the meditation. She spent few days in Monastery to reflect on her life and purpose of being here. She detached from the surrounding to clearly see her path she discovered a time ago. Unfortunately sometimes we loose this track for a moment and we need consciously bring ourselves back on it no matter happens. The little distractions are highly recommended in order to break down the on going series of factors which are leading us nowhere. I am still involved in yoga teaching and dance performance. On 18 and 19 September there is the 'Earth dance' festival in Miami Beach I am going to be a part of, by doing the martial arts / contemporary dance performance http://www.earthdance.org/. Then on 26th September I've got the yoga dance workshop which I am working on right now. I've just started editing my yoga on boat film and as usual don't have enough time to focus on it. I've re injured my knee which swollen like a ball and can not really move. Just lying down on the couch and working on line on outstanding duties such as time table for my classes in London once I am back. I' feel overwhelmed by meeting new people and going out. I want to reset my mind and body. In fact my knee definitely is telling me something....

Monday, December 2, 2013

Naples Sept 2013

...6 months of a hell of the work prior to the Edinburgh Fringe Festival 3-10th Aug 2013. Then relaxation in the Scottish mountines with my parents and friends, later on in the Polish mountines and eventually in southern Italy on the boat and the land. In total almost 2 months of intensively recharging the batteries and meeting extraordinary people. I've spent most of the time sightseeng Vesuvio, Pompei, Sorento and Amalfi cost such as Positano and Amalfi. My italian friends which I made over there were always with me, showing me around and sharing all the knowledge and experience they had. I must admit they new a lot. I've been introduced to the mistery of southern life style 'dolce non far niente' and immersed deeply in it. Italians are very generous and gentlemen, they totally know how to look afrer a woman...;) I was living a dream. Visited twice Vesuvio without and with my parents, 1181m above the sea, 500m of crater's lengh and 230m of depth. It was impressive being up there in the most visited wonders of the world and having a beautiful view on the Naples bay from one side and the Sorento's from the other side. On the boat when I was practicing yoga in Castellammare either in the morning or evening I was facing Vulcano, every time it was such a powerful and energising experience. Last 2 weeks of my stay there I was emmeresed in a local lifestyle or rather princess's comfortable life by going to the greatest restaurants and putting on weight because of a double portions as my friends wouldn't eat at all. They were on the same boat, suffering the separation from their families. They were constantly blaming themselves for being a cause of their wives lost. There is nobody to blame for living the life one wants. If someone loves us deeply, can forgive anything, if not then it means that's we are better off by ourselves. Most of time we don't want to know that family is not necessarily for us or may be not in this particular moment and context. We push the boundaries to survive by saving something which is gone, it doesn't make any sense. Im on the plane on the way back to London, having no place to go. I was very insecure either I should have stayed in South Italy or come back to London. I've applied for the dance festival 'resolutions' - the biggest in the world in regards the contemporary dance competition and have been accepted. This is the reason why I am heading back home to London. I need to be ready to perform in February, then few more performances in the Uk, finaly get on boat and sail for 4 months around Greek and Turkish islands. After all, next November 2014 cross the Atlantic. The next 7 months will be full of work to prepare the LCP' tour around the UK. I don't think I am going to spend xmas anywhere warm as my aim is dance and sailing. I need to find a one bedroom flat to live in and be able to rent it out while I am away. Any ideas....?

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Ski in Poland Easter March 2013

Im on the way back to London from Poland. It's been such a nice and restful time (10 days). Ive ended up with my mum in the mountains skiing. I've opened the ski seson in the spring. The ski condition was perfect, I was almost on my own on the ski trail. During 3 days we visited different ski locations such as Wisla Cienkow (red and blue)http://www.google.com/search?q=wisla+cienkow&safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=xDGiUaytEcXjO63bgdgJ&ved=0CAoQ_AUoAQ&biw=1280&bih=664 , Stozek (1km black) http://www.google.com/search?q=stozek&safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=5zGiUezKNsTfOaGegLgB&ved=0CAoQ_AUoAQ&biw=1280&bih=664#safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=stozek+ski&oq=stozek+ski&gs_l=img.3...7408.8041.0.8284.4.4.0.0.0.0.0.0..0.0...0.0...1c.1.14.img.uiDiFGP3VKI&bav=on.2,or.r_cp.r_qf.&bvm=bv.47008514,d.ZWU&fp=a74d7bb99e98c702&biw=1280&bih=664 and Czantoria (2km read and 3km blue) http://www.google.com/search?q=stozek&safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=5zGiUezKNsTfOaGegLgB&ved=0CAoQ_AUoAQ&biw=1280&bih=664#safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=czantoria&oq=czantoria&gs_l=img.3..0j0i24l9.47008.48651.2.48965.9.6.0.2.2.0.355.761.0j1j1j1.3.0...0.0...1c.1.14.img.0yy0Kecedoo&bav=on.2,or.r_cp.r_qf.&bvm=bv.47008514,d.ZWU&fp=a74d7bb99e98c702&biw=1280&bih=664 . The hardest one was Stozek but the longest Czantoria. Stozek had got a very nice familiar vibre with a fabilous hostel at the top of the mountains. My mum fell in love with that place so did I. It was a traditional 90 years old hut which still belongs to the government, hasn't been yet privatised after the communism fell down, has maintained the similar style as before in moderation. It was modified just to make it more comfortable and cousy. I've been skiing with someone who I met there and it was nice to exchange the view points and ideas about the quality of live without TV and any aditional gadgets. He was an alcoholic 10 years ago and since he has got rid of the addiction, him and his wife set up the community for adficted people. They run a glass cobstruction company in Austria and help addicted people in Poland. It was nice to see someone's commitment in helping others. The next day we checked out Czantoria. The ski track was very good, the facilities avarage. I've met an ortopedic doctor who was passionate about skiing so were his grown up children. We've skied together for 1 and half hour and exchanged our live experiences while going up on the ski-lift. We had an interesting and inspiring time and we could learn a lot from each other in such a short conversation's time. I wish one day he will open a Ski resort in Szczyrk (ski location which used to be the most attended ski centre some time ago) for doctors. http://www.google.com/search?q=stozek&safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=5zGiUezKNsTfOaGegLgB&ved=0CAoQ_AUoAQ&biw=1280&bih=664#safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=szczyrk&oq=szczyrk&gs_l=img.3...41884.43986.4.44287.7.7.0.0.0.0.0.0..0.0...0.0...1c.1.14.img.0x_arP0sQ8E&bav=on.2,or.r_cp.r_qf.&bvm=bv.47008514,d.ZWU&fp=a74d7bb99e98c702&biw=1280&bih=664 Apparently there is such a big doctors ski community with semi professionals. After our 3 days ski and yoga retreat we went with my mum to a regional restaurant 'Wrzos' in Ustron http://www.google.com/search?q=stozek&safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=5zGiUezKNsTfOaGegLgB&ved=0CAoQ_AUoAQ&biw=1280&bih=664#safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=wrzoz+ustron&oq=wrzoz+ustron&gs_l=img.3...44018.46869.6.47134.12.10.0.0.0.0.336.1052.0j3j1j1.5.0...0.0...1c.1.14.img.wZkK2XuUtBQ&bav=on.2,or.r_cp.r_qf.&bvm=bv.47008514,d.ZWU&fp=a74d7bb99e98c702&biw=1280&bih=664. We treated ourselves with a grilled goat chees (oscypki) http://www.google.com/search?q=stozek&safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=5zGiUezKNsTfOaGegLgB&ved=0CAoQ_AUoAQ&biw=1280&bih=664#safe=active&client=safari&rls=en&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=oscypki&oq=oscypki&gs_l=img.3..0j0i24l2.28004.29694.8.30548.7.7.0.0.0.0.205.865.0j4j1.5.0...0.0...1c.1.14.img.9fS-DEbyvKM&bav=on.2,or.r_cp.r_qf.&bvm=bv.47008514,d.ZWU&fp=a74d7bb99e98c702&biw=1280&bih=664, meat, mushroom and cabige dumplings and bogracz (meat stew with potatos and sort of dumplings). For desert we had got a deliscious sharlotka (apple pie) with melted chocolate, wipped cream and ice-cream. We came back to our city home in the evening. Next day after the family dinner and I took off to London.

Calabria 2013

Calabria May 2013 Getting on the national express in Liverpool st of London seemed to be a quite achivement. I have arrived 2 min after the bus' s departure and my wife was there since half an hour getting upset with my delay. I knew that I couldnt find any ecxuse for being late. I could only blame myself for ignoring a time. Well...things happen when I am out of my daily rushing rutine. I have a knee injury which put me out of focuse and slowed down my life's paste. As soon as we arrived to Lamezia in Calabria we hired a car Peugeot 107 and we drove a new friends we met on the flight London-Lamezia. We dropped them off half way to Scalea in Paola where we stopped at the local resraurant for our first italian dish pasta - exquisite ravioli filled with fish and pizza. It was a really nice interval during the journey. We arrived at the destination before midnight. Roby's friend Antonio was waiting for us to opent the door. It's amazing how much he cares about Roby and is always available for me. The next day we went to such a beautiful sea location in San Nicola where we have been indicated by a local man the best spot by the beach. We ended up by staying at the roofed bar/restaurant by the sea where we could plug in our laptops chargers and connect to internet via sim cards. We have been invited to the family's lunch, whose members were prepairing the service for a summer. The head of the family was very bright and communicative. His wife also was a fun. My wife had to eat a meat in her mushrooms pasta as she didn't want to appear impolite by stating tha she was a vegetarian. The tomatos and salad were organic picked up from the garden so were the mushrooms picked up from the forest. The overall energy at the table was fantastic. In the afternoon we went to the hirdresser where beside the fact that my wife was doing her hair, i did my hair cut as well which i wasn't very happy about. Likely the hair grows...Considering that we are still out of the pick summer season there are no clubs to go out. My wife invited me instead to a nice fish dinner at the restaurant 'Tari' located in a historical centre of Scalea - indicated by our new friend Carletto from a local barbier shop next to our appartment. I forgot to mention that it's my 3rd year since I have been traveling to Scalea, only the flat's level changed from the ground floor to the second one. All the rest remained the same. I love it over here. The cost is wonderful and people warm and welcoming. The following and the last day of my wife's stay we drove to Maratea to visit a port and climb up to the top of Jesus's statue. We were very lucky to happen in the right moment at the right place. There was a wedding in the local church up on the hill and we've met some locals who have invited us to the ceremony. We spent 9 hours on never ending eating: startrers, first courses, second courses, deserts... We finished with the tort consumption and we had to leave at 9pm to be able to get some sleep before taking my wife back to the airport at 5am and returning our little vehicle. We had such a good time over the last 4 days. It seemed like an extended period of time judging from the intensity of events. I am on my own on the train heading back home in Scalea...

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Human Trafficking in Mental Health

Human Trafficking in Mental Health (by me for Minded Institute) What is a human trafficking? Is it the sexual slavery, the domestic violence or the labor slavery? It’s not easy to distinguish the real meaning of it. All those factors are related to each other and definitely can be linked to human trafficking. However my main focus is in a global sexual slavery. Almost 1milion population including children, women and men are en–slaved and tortured each year in demand for their bodies (UN 2007). There are certain organizations, which globally are engaged in the battle against human trafficking such as the United Nations (UN), International Organization of Migration (IOM), International Labor Organization (ILO) and UNICEF. To increase the awareness of this phenomenon on national and international level all kind of medias such as New York Times, National Geographic, film productions ‘Dirty Pretty Things’, ‘Holly’ and performing arts are involved in either tracking the most affected locations, population or providing with the preventions such as counseling, psychotherapy, creative therapy, neurotherapy (neurofeeback). The main cause of human trafficking is a migration and labor slavery of trafficked population due to the underdeveloped economically countries and other mental disorders of traffickers. According to Omelaniuk (2005), IOM data show that nearly 80% of those trafficked are women, and 75% are 25 years old or younger. Seelke and Siskin (2008) highlight that trafficking can occur in multiple ways: individuals could be kidnapped as well as lured or enticed with false promises of paying jobs. Hughes and Denisova (2002) also report that individuals may be drawn into trafficking through such sophisticated methods as apparently legal “modeling” schools, tourist agencies, or seemingly reputable sources for international jobs. Women and children trafficked for sexual exploitation typically are sexually tortured, raped, starved, confined, secluded and forced to have unprotected sex with multiple sexual partners (Monzini 2005; Omelaniuk 2005; Seelke and Siskin 2008). Many are also forcibly made to use drugs (Monzini 2005; Seelke and Siskin 2008). Those trafficked for purposes of forced labor can be similarly physically and mentally abused as well as confined, secluded and made to work in brutal conditions and for long hours (Seelke and Siskin 2008). Those individuals who are found and returned to their home communities often face additional difficulties. Many countries have no or inconsistent laws and regulations regarding the identification and treatment of trafficked individuals (Omelaniuk 2005). When returned, individuals may be spurned by their home communities and their families, especially in the case of sexual trafficking, forcing individuals into conditions that make them again vulnerable to being trafficked (Hughes and Denisova 2002; Monzini 2005). For example, studies in Ukraine show that 75% of families would shun a child who was known to be involved in prostitution, even if involuntary (Hughes and Denisova 2002). In addition to these difficulties being increasingly addressed by non-governmental organizations and international human rights organizations in trafficked individuals’ home communities, much can be done by those countries considered to be receiving communities, such as the U.S. or the countries of the European Union. The victims of such a terrible traumatic experience can search help in mental health professionals and their organizations in attending to issues related to trafficking, such as rehabilitation of victims, prevention of trafficking and becoming involved in local, national and international efforts to stop these violations of human rights. Severe psychological and physical abuse, as well as struggling to survive under extreme and at times life-threatening conditions, marks the typical context of trafficking (Hughes and Denisova 2002; IOM 2002; Monzini 2005; UN 2007). IOM (2002) reports show that typical victims of trafficking experience many symptoms reported by those who have experienced torture, such as psychosomatic reactions, psychological reactions, psychoactive substance abuse and dependence, social reactions and psychophysical consequences of PTSD or injuries. A study by Bezpalcha (2003) identified the following range of reactions: fear, guilt, rage, sense of betrayal, distrust, helplessness, shock, suspicion and feeling lost. An IOM (2003) study involving trafficked women in Kosovo showed that individuals also may experience a sense of apathy/resignation, extreme forms of submissiveness to any authority, maladaptation in all social situations, and loss of personal initiative or autonomy. This study also showed that such individuals tended to turn to self-medication through substances as well as being much more likely to inflict self-harm or to commit suicide. However, this study also highlighted that victims of trafficking often possessed resilience and a quest for meaning that facilitated their healing and adaptation. Even if the psychological assistance is highly required to help the victims to deal with their trauma, however existing guidelines appear to focus primarily on actions by law enforcement personnel, humanitarian and social agencies seeking to provide victims with basic needs, such as safety and shelter, as well as more fundamental legal and economic resources. Focus on repatriation to their home community is often primary. Thus, although psychological rehabilitation is frequently highlighted as being vital to victims’ healing and integration, it seems to receive only minimal attention and resources. Aron et al (2006) reported that victims often indicated that they wished to receive some type of counseling treatment, especially after their sense of safety and normalcy was re-established. In their study, those who received counseling reported “many positive outcomes, including a stronger sense of self and a feeling that that they have grown stronger from having survived the trafficking experience and coped with its aftermath”. Mental health practitioners are trained to provide with appropriate service to the victims of physical and mental abuse. Also they collaborate with social agencies that can provide such clients with access to legal, economic, vocational, and other vital life resources. The clinical work with victims of trafficking is most likely to include cross-cultural encounters; counselors should seek training in how to work through interpreters. Therapists cultural awareness should encompass an understanding of the diversity of worldviews, family/community/social processes, and ethnic identity. A mental health education, psychotherapy, cultural empowerment, and integration of Western and indigenous healing methods are a key point in efficiency of helping the victims of Human trafficking. In prevention of human trafficking a various organizations are involved as specified above. The integrity of therapists and the international organizations can improve the chance of help and save life’s of human trafficking victims. As I’ve already mentioned about the common mental damage due to a sexual abuse, its causes and preventions, now I would like to relate to the alternative therapy techniques, which are as powerful and useful in posttraumatic recovery form the even as traditional therapy. Human trafficking victims usually have symptoms of PTSD and the most common ways of healing are through the breath, body movement and meditation. As much as I’m interested in creative arts form of therapy, however on this occasion I would like to elaborate a theme of yoga therapy in this particular population. YFTM is one of the yoga therapy forms, which consists of psychotherapy, neuroscience, yoga and meditation aspect in healing of people with mental health issues including PTSD. In this case I would like to draw attention to PTSD aspect in relationship to YFTM based on neuroscience. In PTSD there is an imbalance in the brain functioning between the left and right hemisphere. Repetitive recall of traumatic memories and chronic intermittent hyperarousal are characteristic of posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Hyperarousal and memory dysfunction implicates “limbic” brain regions, including the amygdaloid complex, hippocampal formation, and limbic cortex, such as the orbitofrontal and anterior cingulate areas. Activation for PTSD population occures in the anterior cingulate/middle prefrontal cortex - in the region of the left amygdala. The neurotherapy/neurofeedback is another very sufficient form of therapy to treat the PTSD patients and in this case victims of human trafficking. It involves helping a person learn how to modify his or her brainwave activity to improve attention, reduce impulsivity, and to control hyperactive behaviors. It is a painless, non-invasive treatment approach that allows the individual to gain information about his or her brainwave activity and use that information to produce changes in brainwave activity. Available research indicates that individuals with PTSD have too little of certain types of brainwave activity in some areas of the brain and/or too much of certain other brainwave activity in comparison to those without the disorder. In Neurotherapy individuals are trained through the use of computerized biofeedback equipment to change their brainwave activity. Clinicians and researchers who have provided Neurotherapy training report that when brainwave activity is changed, or when the brain is trained to work in certain ways in the process of Neurotherapy, symptoms of PTSD are usually reduced. YFTM is one of the most efficient methods to treat the PTSD in a very complex way. By fusing various techniques such as: breath, yoga practice, meditation/relaxation we centre the body, breath and mind. By merging them with psychotherapy and neuroscience’s principles we prevent from the memories arousals, traumatic experience flashbacks. As PTSD population is tent to be dissociated from themselves, YFTM helps this population to be aware of body, breath and by being with whatever sensation arises, brings mind to the present moment. Ocean sound breath in first place draws attention to the breath and calms down the triggered mind. Followed by a very intelligently structured simple yoga sequence, brings awareness to the body and movement. The meditation at the end of the therapy session allows to rest the body, breath and mind. To stay still in lying or seating position requires focused and centered mind. All those elements enriched by psycho and neuro education are grounding, helpful in stilling the mind and preventing from repetitive thoughts arousals. The closing at the end of therapy session integrates the participants if it’s a group sharing and allows to express ones feelings on the surface of not engaging topics. In addition to such a set up practice after yoga sequence or instead of it, depending on time I would consider adding the flow/free/improvised meditative movement starting from the floor and gradually rising up, using different levels in different space and dynamic. In this case I would play a soft music that would inspire one to move within his/her range of movement. This would aspire the participant to be creative and feel safe in the environment created by his/her awareness while moving. Followed by ocean sound breath and relaxation in corps pose would settle up once breath and mind in a present moment. I would like to elaborate a little bit more border the topic of trauma and PTSD in relationship to survivors of human trafficking. Beside all the factors, causes and ways of dealing with PTSD I’m going to give an outlook on the traumatic events in general and in relationship to trafficked population. Trauma is a noun- meaning wound. It’s defined as: a psychologically wounding experience which “includes physical, sexual and institutional abuse, neglect, intergenerational trauma and disasters that induce powerlessness, fear, recurrent hopelessness and a constant state of alert” (National Center on Trauma-Informed Care). A traumatic experience usually includes the overwhelming experiences beyond one’s normal ability to cope, threat to one’s physical and/or mental well-being, extreme vulnerability or a complete loss of control, feeling chronically helpless and fearful, profoundly disrupts one’s relationships and one’s basic belief systems (J. Herman, 1992). PTSD can develop in people who have experienced: childhood physical, emotional, or sexual abuse, a serious accident, medical complications, violent physical assaults including torture, sexual assault or rape, violent, life threatening, natural disasters, incarceration, human trafficking-labor and/or sex. Severe trauma destroys one’s belief in a safe world. One loses his or her ability to control or predict their world. All survivors search for meaning in what has happened to them. Finding some meaning is critical to ultimate healing. Culture plays a significant role in how trauma is identified, explained and resolved. How does our culture view a prostituted teenage, criminal, drug addict, willing participant, or victim? All these labels affect how the teenager views him or herself and how quickly they see their own vulnerability and victimization. The same level of PTSD is in prostituted persons as in combat veterans. Trafficked persons often don’t know if they will live or die, moment to moment. Over 90% of prostituted persons want out, but cope with continuing in prostitution-by dissociation and numbing out (Melisa Farley, Ph.D.) Trauma occurs on a continuum of complexity, from less complex single events adult onset (an auto accident), to the repeated and intrusive trauma, frequently of an interpersonal nature (the serial commercial rape of sex trafficking). The more the violation of relationship, trust, body integrity, violence, the more prolonged the deepening of trauma. Complex trauma Involves multiple or prolonged traumatic events. It results in emotional deregulation, loss of safety, direction, and the ability to detect or respond to danger cues. Often ‘miss’-diagnosed as ADD/ADHD, OCD, Schizoaffective, etc (J. Herman, 1992). Intergenerational trauma consists of traumatic events that took place in previous generations and impact current behaviors and beliefs (colonization, Holocaust survivors, earthquake and hurricane survivors, domestic violence, sexual abuse, trafficking (Ally Jamieson, MSW). Prevalence estimates of lifetime exposure to traumatic events from the National Comorbidity Survey were as high as 61% of men and 51% of women (Kessler et al, 1995). 29% of all forcible rapes happen before the age of 11. In 1994, 62% of nearly 3 million attacks on American women were perpetrated by someone they knew, 63% of nearly 4 million attacks on men were perpetrated by someone they didn’t know, strangers (van der Kolk, 2000). Children are abused at a rate1500% higher than the national average (National Victim Center, 1993) Traumatic responses are that person’s best attempt to cope with the overwhelming experience of trauma. Each person responds differently to the same potentially traumatic events depending on one’s personal history with trauma, social and familial supports, and natural coping skills (J. Herman, 1992). Victims who experienced early violence - prolonged, intrusive, and life threatening situations can be expected to manifest severe trauma symptoms and without specialized treatment their traumas will likely leave permanent emotional scars. Even with therapy forty percentage of complex trauma survivor fail to achieve full symptom relief (L. Schupp, 2004). “For many sexual assault precedes their entry into sex trafficking; the trauma they have sustained renders them vulnerable to their traffickers, facilitates the traffickers’ control, and is exacerbated by ongoing serial commercial rapes, terroristic control tactics, trauma bonding, confinement and isolation”(D. Leidhodt, 1994).“Fear is also increased by inconsistent and unpredictable outbursts of violence and by capricious enforcement of petty rules. The ultimate effect of these techniques is to convince the victim that the perpetrator is omnipotent, that resistance is futile, and that her/his life depends upon winning her/his indulgence through absolute compliance” (In Trauma & Recovery, Judith Herman, 1993). In situations of captivity, like human trafficking, the perpetrator becomes the most powerful person in the life of the victim, and the psychology of the victim is shaped by the actions and beliefs of the perpetrator (In Trauma & Recovery, Judith Herman, 1993). Let’s imagine a 13 year old victim constantly having to lie about the age, all the identification is taken away, having to change the name, addictively following the abuser, being kidnapped, raped repeatedly, beaten for not making enough money, having threats made against victim’s family, changing the appearance, being constantly threatened with violence, living with a group of people called “family”, feeling trapped in an abusive and violent situation, not being allowed any contact with the world outside abusive situation, having sex with strangers every night, getting arrested again and again, having to trade sex with a police officer in exchange for not getting arrested,….(CSEC curriculum, Lloyd and Polaris Project). How possibly any human being could cope with such a situation and have no mental issue as a result? What’s the possibility of being able to recover after the mental, physical and brain damage has been done? Let’s have a look at the brain’s structure to recognize the brain changes and its dysfunction due to the behavioral changes based on the abuse. How power game between a victim and abuser can damage someone’s perception of safety and well-being. How possibly someone drawn into the prostitution can accept it without willing to escape. How manipulative must be oppressors, so victims obey every violation of their rights. How does our brain function to allow such a mental conditions to take place and create such a fear around traumatic event, so the victim is lost in self-evaluation and is not able to rebuild the trust. All these wouldn’t be explicable if the neuroscience wasn’t so advanced to prove the neuroplasticity and neurogenesis, that brain can change, the new neurons can be re-built and fired/wired between themselves. By relearning new thinking and behavioral patterns we create in the brain new neuro-patterns, which make remarkable changes in a life of someone who has been exposed to events which made his/her life unbearable and dissociated from it. In the structure of the brain we’ve got three major sections all related with each other: limbic system responsible for emotional regulations; brain stem for a heart rate, breathing, blood pressure, appetite, temperature, integrates with emotions and thoughts to adjust internal responses, can make some internal states “conscious” (hunger, pain, fatigue, etc.) and prefrontal cortex responsible for executive thinking like thoughts, problem solving, planning, organizing, time management. How do threats to safety impact the brain? Our body is designed to keep us out of danger. In other words, when trafficking surivers are unable to fight or flee, the entrapment instills a constant state of frozen hopelessness and hyper vigilance. We have one set of chemicals that revs us up, another that calms us down, and a third set that helps regulate the other two (Homelessness and Traumatic Stress Training Package The National Center on Family Homelessness). ““PTSD develops following exposure to events that overwhelm the individual’s capacity to re-establish homeostasis. Instead of returning to baseline, there is a progressive kindling of the individual’s stress response...even minor reminders of the trauma may precipitate a full-blown neuroendocrine stress reaction”(Van Der Kolk, 2003). Neurotransmitters are the chemicals that tell the brain what to think, feel, and do such as: Serotonin, Dopamine, Epinephrine, Norepinephrine, Oxytocin, Vasopressin. Environmental and emotional triggers inform how do neurotransmitters interact to regulate our moods and functioning. This is the classic “fight” or “flight” or “freeze” response in dangerous situations. Triggers activate the alarm system. When someone is triggered they may feel and act as though they are back in the time of danger, even though they are not (J. Herman, 1992). “Cells that fire together, wire together”. “Within this zone, a person can contain and experience affects, sensations, and thoughts and can process information effectively ...without disrupting the functioning of the system.” Ogden & Minton (1999).“Poor tolerance for arousal is characteristic of traumatized individuals” (Van der Kolk, 1987). Cortisol (stress hormone) protects the body by proper glucose metabolism, regulation of blood pressure, insulin release for blood sugar maintenance immune function, inflammatory response. With extreme and consistently high stress levels, the body experiences impaired memory and thought processes, widespread cell death, decreased developmental capacity, physical ailments such as: suppressed thyroid function, blood sugar imbalances, higher blood pressure and lowered immunity. In explicit memory is a need for conscious recollection in order to recall something. Implicit memory is characterized by a lack of conscious awareness in the act of recollection. Traumatic memories are stored in the implicit memories. The strongest memory is smell. The amygdala houses all unconscious traumatic memories and is where “fight/flight/freeze” is decided. The amygdala signals the rest of the body to respond through high levels of cortisol and other neurotransmitters/neurohormones. Trauma or sustained high stress in childhood damages the corpus callosum, which connects the left brain from the right brain. Disconnection can result in unknown and reactionary emotional states, depression and anxiety disorders, and memory limitations. What things might “trigger” a trafficking victim in a Salvation Army shelter? Certain smells, the presence of men in a female area, forced to stay in the shelter-confinement, lack of cultural sensitive activities or food, having no voice in case planning/decisions. Hebb’s hypothesis about “neurons that fire together wire together” means that the more we use neurons (thoughts, feelings) the stronger their connections become. The negative cycle of thinking processes stops from further prevention of expansion of self capacities, create overwhelming feelings associated with trauma/abuse, dissociate and use avoidance as coping skill (Briere, 2002). Psychological challenges for trauma survivors affect dysregulation, aggression against self and/or others, amnesia, dissociation, depression, distrust, shame, self-hatred. Traumatized sexual slavery victims experience flashbacks and repeated reliving of traumatic experience, avoid reminders, are hyper vigilant, have got concentration difficulties, unconsciously search for similarities between present experiences and past trauma (van der Kolk, 2003). Extreme stress disorders in PTSD complex event like human trafficking characterize victims with difficulty regulating anger or self- destruction, amnesias, dissociative and depersonalization episodes, chronic guilt, shame, and sense of responsibility, inability to trust or feel intimate with others. Common victims of human trafficking are children and as a result of developed trauma they respond in certain way to protect themselves, such as: fear and anxiety, difficulty in regulating emotions, memory and attention difficulties, learning challenges, psychotic-like symptoms , avoidance, sexualized behaviors, aggression, difficulty relating to others (Adapted from National Crime Victims Research and Treatment Center, Medical University of South Carolina). There are a positive feelings (Stockholm Syndrome) by the victim towards the abuser/controller and negative feelings by the victim towards family, friends, or authorities trying to rescue/support them or win their release. They support the abuser's reasons and behaviors, the abuser towards the victim has got positive feelings, supportive behaviors by the victim, at times helping the abuser, inability to engage in behaviors that may assist in their release or detachment (CSEC Curriculum, Lloyd and Polaris Project). In terms of trauma bonds victims are grateful for small kindness, deny violence when violence and threats of violence are actually occurring, rationalize violence, deny anger at exploiter to others and to self, believe they have some control over abuse. They believe if they control situation it lessens pimps/customers/traffickers control and abuse, self-blame for situation and abuse (CSEC Curriculum, Lloyd and Polaris Project). For Stockholm Syndrome to occur needs to be the presence of a perceived threat to one's physical or psychological survival and the belief that the abuser would carry out the threat, the presence of a perceived small kindness from the abuser to the victim, isolation from perspectives other than those of the abuser, the perceived inability to escape the situation (CSEC Curriculum, Lloyd and Polaris Project). Unfortunately, many victims return to abusive situations. Breaking trauma bonds takes the following: time, being genuine and caring about their welfare, building a trusting relationship, involving survivors in a program, providing practical assistance, and offering hope for positive change over time (move from victim to survivor identification). There is a vast amount of trauma specific therapies used in human trafficking victims cases which I’ve mentioned about earlier and I would like to extend it to: Cognitive-Behavioral (CBT) - to address faulty beliefs, peer support group therapy, intensive grief counseling Rapid Eye Movement, tapping, other physical techniques to break the connection between sensations and memories, journaling, writing, poetry, art, dance, yoga, breath work, life skills training, exposure and other behavioral therapies, spiritual approaches such as mediation, mindfulness, Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) (Ally Jamieson, MSW). Additionally, developing alternative to traditional “talk” therapies is seen as an important adjunct in the long term healing of trauma, especially therapies that build self esteem, empowerment and re-connection with self, such as: art therapy, journaling, poetry and song writing, yoga, body work, drama and outdoor physical activities, like gardening and pet therapy. To intervene existing situations there is a need of particular strategies such as: exploration vs. consolidation – finding the balance, intensity control and the goal sequence – self before trauma. The most important for survivors is to develop a relationship with self. It can be achieved by safety, support, facilitation of self-awareness and positive identity, self/other entitlement, affects modulation/tolerance and interpersonal relationship challenges (Ally Jameison, MSW). The therapeutic processes are facilitated in order to increase survivors awareness of triggers, reduce influence of memories when triggered, reduce cognitive/emotional activation over time (Briere, 2002). In order to be most helpful, Salvation Army line staff should be trained in basic calming techniques and coordinate efforts with the treating specialized clinical therapist, and the victim/survivor him or herself. 􏰀 Safety, anxiety management, emotional processing are the most critical steps in treating PTSD (van der Kolk, 2003). Trauma informed practice suggests the staff are aware (as much as possible) of potential triggers and reactions to triggers for the survivors under their care, and that staff will have planned a strategy to assist survivors to calm themselves when they are triggered with non- life threatening environmental stimuli. The informed program is designed of 6 Components for Trauma: setting the stage, conducting and understanding the self-assessment results, develop a strategic plan, implement trauma-Informed changes, sustain change/adapt to new challenges. The principles of Trauma-Informed Care are to understand trauma and its impact, promote safety, ensuring cultural humility, supporting survivor’s control, choice and autonomy, sharing power and governance, integrated & holistic system of care, caring and supportive relationships, on-going healthy boundary analysis and belief that recovery is possible (Headington Institute, 2010). Trauma-Informed Organizations are living systems themselves. Like individuals, organizations are vulnerable to the impact of repetitive and/or chronic stress conditions. It’s essential to ask ourselves question what kinds of people trigger us? Awareness is critical...When we are listening to someone’s story of something that triggers us, we are hit twice as hard psychologically and biologically. The “body memories” are triggered and are not necessarily in our control (Ally Jamieson, MSW) I would like to refer to a Vicarious Trauma. It’s a transformation in the self of a trauma worker or helper that results from empathic engagement with traumatized clients. Its physical and psychological signs manifest in hyper-arousal, invasive thoughts or images regarding traumatic events (particularly when trying not to think about it), feeling numb, feeling unable to tolerate strong emotions, increased sensitivity to violence, cynicism, generalized despair, hopelessness, loss of idealism, guilt regarding our own survival and/or pleasure, anger, disgust, fear (Headington Institute, 2010) Vicarious Trauma is characterized by various behavior and relationship signs, such as: difficulty setting boundaries, feeling like we never have time or energy for ourselves, feeling disconnected from love, general social withdrawal, difficulties paying attention to other’s distressing stories, decreased interest in activities that used to bring enjoyment or relaxation, irritable, intolerant, agitated, impatient, needy, and/or moody, increased dependencies or addictions involving nicotine, alcohol, food, sex, shopping , internet, and/or other substances, sexual difficulties, impulsivity (Headington Institute, 2010) Transference can happen in every healthy relationship. To be able to bring traumatized person back to its own values and self-confidence the awareness, balance and connections are essential. Very important are self care strategies such as sleep, eat well, exercise, walk, jog, dance, do yoga, read for pleasure, say ‘no’, smile, see friends, cry, laugh, meditate, boundaries. “Personal boundaries are guidelines, rules or limits that a person creates to identify for themselves what are reasonable, safe and permissible ways for other people to behave around them and how they will respond when someone steps outside those limits.” Source: (ChildTraumaAcademy,2002) In what ways can language “creep into” our perceptual world and influence or change how we view a situation? If it’s manipulative, bossy, paranoid it can hurt and affect the recovery of the victim. If it’s gentle, sensitive, in the same time indicating the rules and boundaries for example instead of ‘Rule-no watching TV after 10pm’ can be rephrased ‘Community Living Agreement -You can watch TV until 10pm’. In communication of rules is significant to include what you can do, not simply what you can’t do. To create the safety environment around the therapy delivered to the victim of human trafficking and PTSD, remarkable is the awareness of other services involved in the therapeutic methodology, staff training trauma, impact on development, symptoms, triggers, attachment theory, cultural differences in trauma meaning, impact of working with survivors on staff, de-escalation strategies, maintaining healthy professional boundaries. To monitor the changes and process of victims healing is on going staff supervision and self care, establishing a safe physical environment, cultural competency, privacy and confidentiality. To prevent client from flashbacks and self-harming is to set up the safety planning and crisis prevention, open and respectful communication, developing empowering goals and plans. The reason I chose to elaborate the human trafficking topic in mental health is to picture one’s difficulties to engage in the society, forgive him/herself and others; encourage one to appreciate the given opportunity to live and make changes within the community or just take a different path in his/her life. We are only human beings and the mind is there to remind us of the past and future, however we are in charge of our own destiny. By using different forms of therapy partly listed above, we can make changes in our life as an individual and as a society. Being judgmental and full of guilt will not make any difference in one’s self-evaluation. By being aware of the weaknesses and accepting the disadvantages we can move forward and make progress. 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Thursday, February 7, 2013

South America: Argentina/Bolivia/Brasil 12Dec-23Jan'13

South America: Argentina/Bolivia/Brasil 12Dec-23Jan'13
Here I am, it took me 2 years to finally book a flight ticket and flew over to Buenos Aires (BA) - the capital of Tango. Before my trip i didn't know what I was going in to, where I was going to stay and which dance school I was going to join. I've signed up for https://www.couchsurfing.org/ and asked if there is anyone who could host me. And likely I've got few responses offering the Argentinian hospitality. If it was a first time I was going to travel from London to another continent, probably I would be worried where I am going to end up. As I'm pretty well traveled by now, going to strangers houses couldn't be a better option. My previous trips weren't that different beside the fact that I wasn't using the internet to live with randomly met people. I was just meeting people directly and sharing their space. Nowdays it takes a second to organise smoothly the trip. Before landing in Buenos Aires on the plane Madrid-Buenos Aires I've met a Portuguese boxer http://boxingbentoalgarvio.blogspot.co.uk/2006/05/bento-no-para.html who competes internationally and collects pretty remarkable results - few golden awards. He was heading to Paraguay to sign another boxing contract. He gave me an interesting idea of performing with my dance theatre company in casinos. Who knows may be this is not such a bad idea. Apparently in Portugal contemporary dancers are performing in casinos. I might give it a go. I definitely will, as soon as I get an internet access. This is a third day in Bueanos Aires and I've managed to stay in two different accommodations so far, one with a lawyer and another with historian. Both are a very interesting people, the lawyer - Manuel has just graduated from his second degree (in law, first in international business relationships) and is currently searching for a scope in his life, planning on going to Australia for 1 year. This is apparently what Argentinian government offers to its citizens, Argentinians can get a 1 year working visa in Australia. This is such a cool idea. The other - historian - Diego is just about going to a wonderful 1 and half month trip to Chille, Bolivia, Mexico, Peru, Panama, Cuba and USA. He teaches history at the secondary school in Buenos Aires and I was honoured to have him as a very knowledgeable tour guide who took me to the Centre of the City - Cathedral and shaw me the most important government places over there. His knowledge is remarkable and whatever he says makes the history looks much more interesting. He speaks few languages: Italian, French, English, Russian, Portuguese but as soon as I've mentioned that I would like to improve my Spanish, since the beginning we've been communicating in that language. i really appreciate it. My lawyer friend wants to improve his pretty good English so with all the respect we spoke English. Both places are located centrally so it's easy to move around BA. The lawyer's 3 bedroom house is cute, has got 2 levels connected by very high and narrow stairs and a roof terrace which I love. There is also a big plantation of herbs which strong smell couldn't indicate better their origins...;) The other place is full of incredible collection of historical books from different periods, countries and in different languages, it's a tinny one bedroom flat with the walls full of books/pictures/posters/paintings of revolutionary time, including all Argentinean dictators like Peron. The current presidency of Cristina Fernández de Kirchner could be also questioned...It's impressive and Im sure my host has definitely read them all. What I can say from my first impression about Buenos Aires, it is definitely a city with highly qualified intellectual class. The size of it is comparable to London with 10 million population including the suburbs. I've already advertised for the artistic collaboration between the tango and contemporary dancers. I see that it will be difficult to start any project before the Xmas break as most of people I've spoken with are leaving to visit their families. Im considering on going for 10 days to Uruguay to enjoy the sea. It's pretty hot over here: 40 degrees, but I couldn't complain, this is a perfect temperature for me. Today it is a little bit heavy as the rain is coming. The food is fantastic, I'm trying all kind of pastry home made products such as empanadas, tortillas, crema de papas, ecc, also sweets are delicious. It's a mix of Italian and spanish cuisine, nobody eats indoors. In fact the fridges of my hosts are empty. The food outdoors is fresh and cheap. I still have to figure out the currency exchange for pound in relation to pesos. it's around 8 pesos for 1 pound, 5$ for 1 peso in legal exchange and on the black market is 8$. I didn't know earlier that foreign currency is not allowed in Argentina any more. The value of their local currency dropped down impressively recently in the last year and the president prohibited the trade in $. It's pathetic that basicaly over last 12 years the country was managed by the dectators of a couple who pretend to safe their country by ruining it and getting towards another big economical crisis. 20 yeaars ago when 1$ was equal to 1peso Argentinias were traveling, buying houses. From one day to another they could only cash limited amount of money per month. After few years the peso lost it's strong value which made people loose almost everything. For instance, if they were lucky, from 50 000$ they were left only with 10 000$. Even this amount was hard to withdraw from a bank. If one has managed, after leaving a bank was exposed to a cruel rubbery (that's what I've been told by one of the Argentinian travellers who lives abroad). It's 5th day since my arrival to BA and I'm still leaving in a second home with my historian couchsurf friend. It's really nice, Diego has introduced me to an Argentinian culture, just watched the classical argentinian movie 'La mirada invisible' Diego Lerman http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=du1QQsdw8vA about screwed up dictatorship's period in Argentina 30 years ago: Fascist system and total control of any kind of individuality. Very similar to Poland and Soviet Union during that time. I'm enjoying though the hospitality time in BA, I don't event want to go out, it's so nice to live locals live and hear their stories about it. Tonight I might explore a little bite the science of Tango. I've been once to a tango place, took a class and danced with my lawyer's host Manuel. This week I'm planning to tango every evening. I'm at my historian host's place, having my own space and all tools to work on my project. It's been a pretty hectic time before coming to BA and sorting out the trip, accommodation and continuously pilling up outstanding things related to my dance/yoga work. Overall Buenos Aires seems to be more chilled than London. Everyday I made my way around areas recommended by locals. I love people over here, Im very much looked after and being honest I don't need anything more. I found the dance school DNI http://dni-tango.com/?lang=en Just before I left London, i've been recommended to approach it by one of the dancers who was attending our company's class. I visited that school yesterday by joining tango class with the director Dana Frigoli http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpJI7XWXoXI. The school is based on Tango Nuevo, The artistic director of tango dance company runs the company during the day 10-13 and in the afternoon till 9pm runs dance classes opened to everyone. It's located in Palermo (area of BA), not far away from where I am. By bicycle it takes me to get there a half an hour. It's not easy to cycle here as the roads are very bad with plenty of wholes, it feels like being in a washing machine, it reminds me a bit of my trip in India, especially in Himalaya were I've been getting constantly sick because of this shacking effect. Coming back to tango, it's definitely worth to risk getting sick on the bike and afterwards immerse in such a wonderful world of sensual and romantic tango. I love the music, environment, swinging people around the floor and swapping the partners. Each time is a new experience. The school I visited, I've approached from a partnership work prospective of exchanging the tango classes for yoga and contemporary classes which I could teach. The director of school would like to do such an exchange but of course she needs more time to plan it. Their company just finished 11 months of full time tango training and the tour. She is exhausted to plan anything new. She proposed to meet up at some point at the beginning of January 2013 and talk about next year collaboration. This is definitely something I could consider especially if I end up on the boat by crossing the Atlantic. I've just watched a wonderful movie 'Tango Class' Sally Porter recommended by my historian friend and I'm amazed by the quality of such a intelligently structured scenography. The film https://vimeo.com/7868971 is very simply and real, the main protagonist is also a director and there are just four actors, except from extras. The sensibility and sensitivity of Sally is so touching. The way she pictures tango is very unique, it's the simplest and most sensual dance on the earth. Yesterday I've visited the most popular tango place la Viruta http://www.lavirutatango.com/clases_de_baile.html not far away from where I live. The entrance is 40 pesos (5£) and i can dance as much as I want till the morning with tango classes included. I don't take any tango classes and I dance exclusively with other tango partners. They are the best teachers. However I must admit that tango in London is much more advanced and developed, so far I haven't found a good tango partner to dance with. I'm in the heart of tango and I can not find the best tango dancers... Well, I might make some afford to track them. The Xmas time is coming just in 1 day and I haven't figured yet out where I am going to stay. I might just tango during Navidad. Today 2nd week from my arrival I'm going by the boat to explore the Rio de La Plata (Tigre) - the biggest Argentinean river. I don't think there will be any chance to jump in the water as I can imagine that it could be like Thames in London or Ganges in India. I am getting used to Buenos Aires and I love the idea of tango music and dance all over the place. I'm living in Argentinean house on my own and I feel home. Though I might take somewhere else trip soon. As soon as I looked up couchsurf I've found the Xmas party by the river at Tigre. More or less the same location comparing with the one I've just come back from the boat's trip. This time the owners- Argentinian/Duch couple invited couchsurfers to their hostel 24-26th dec to spend together Xmas. I've packed up again and left the city. It was such a challange to travel gratis as all the cash points were run out of the money and all the kiosks were run out of the coins. Eventually I've managed to get on the city bus where someone very kindly has offered me the pass, the train to Rio-Tigre was luckily free. I'm not surprise as the trains here run as they want without any particular time table. As soon as I've got to Tigre I've found a cash point and could do some shopping for Xmas. Got on the boat and arrived literally at the private pier of the final destination. The hosts and guests welcomed me from the pier. It was so hot, around 50 celldegreece, I've desperately jumped in to the green water of Rio. The water didn't look very inviting as it was hard to see anything underneath but it felt so refreshing, especially when you are in the oven/hell. Also the strong current worked like a hydromassage. Almost 20 people of different nationalities such as Columbians, Venezuelans, Germans, French, Polish (including myself), Dutch and Argentinians of course were attending the Xmas celebration. Everyone brought or prepared their special meals which we all could taste during the Xmas eve. It was one of the nices Xmas I have ever experienced, by the river, in 30 celdegreece of temperature (night) and with such a cosmopolitan environment. I've spent quite few Xmas's all around the world by the wonderful seas and naturalistically/geographically impressive places and all of them where as much amazing, but this one has been unique because it has happened in such an unexpected and surprising way. After the midnight shampaign celebration of the Chrise's bday I've jumped with my friend David in the river and we decided to cross it to join the columbian party on the opposite side. The current was pretty strong and I've almost lost my pans, the speed engine boats were coming in darkness towards us, likely we got to the edge of the river and surprised the celebrants on that side of the river. They looked scared and worried when they saw us appearing in the middle of the island from nowhere, we simply ignored it. While we were dancing, eventually men from the Columbian family started socialising with us by offering us drinks and joining in. We were dancing all together until the strong wind begun. We were concerned about the current of the river that can get stronger and we won't be able to cross the river back. We jumped back into the river and this time I was prepared to catch up my pens when they came out, we crossed the river with the fear of crashing against the engine boat. We luckily ended up on the pier of our a bit worried hosts and guests. Told them the story and went to sleep. I was in the room with a lovely Columbian couple who where studing in Buenos Aires. Spent in the b&b 2 nights in total and came back to BA. Next day left for another regon near by Cordoba - San Luis -Merlo, where i've been hosted by my Argentinian's friend familiy. I explored the mountains, springs and waterfalls, tracked, swam, ate food prepared by my friend's generous aunt who treated me as her doughter. I didn't have to do much as she wanted me to be on holiday, probabely because she also wanted to avoid aditionaly mess i might make. The hospitality here is amazing, Argentinians really look after you and they welcome you with all the kindness and love. I'm about to leave Merlo, visited earlier wonderful mountains and springs of San Luis and Cordoba, Caveza Inka (indian head), Pasos Malos, Rencon. I've spent a quality time and have been hosted by wonderful people: Rolando and his aount. Now heading to San Luis, then San Fernando and eventually to Salta. Leaving bad memories behind and keeping the good ones. I'm blessed to meet helpful and generous people on my way. I was literaly living on 'Luna y Mercures' street and now I'm off who knows where... I've arrived in San Luis - a very peaceful and quite country place with lakes, springs and mountines. The mountines and springs are much smaller than in Merlo, but the nature and people are still the same. I'm in love with Argentinian population, people are so hospital with open heart. As soon as I left one hosting family I've entered another family's house with a traveler, who has seen almost the whole world in 12 years of his life. He started his trip when he was 20 years old and came back home to Argentina at the age of 32 years. He came back from climbing Mount Everest just because he broke his crouciant knee's ligament. Now he almost recovered and is ready to go to Australia and New Zeland. In the meantime he would like to cycle across south America. It's very tempting to go on this trip with him.... but first I need to finish my studies in dance degree in London (final perf at the end of March 2013). I wish I could stay in South America until March and then go to California in a Summer June - August and then Boston in September, October - Nepal - climb the Mont Everest and the end of November join Roby in crossing Atlantic and travelling around the world. If it wasn't for dance I wouldn't come back anymore to London. I know that I couldn't live without dance so have to compromise on my dance company and traveling. The couchsurf is the best online travel service that one could invent. People who are subscribed in most of the cases are travelers with a particular mind and spirit which I associate with. The others are locals/hosts who can not travel but at least want to benefit out of foreigners/travelers/guests who can share experiences with them. Yesterday with my new host Alberto we went to the spring. We bought some meat, bread and tomatoes, introduced ourselves to the family who was barbecuing by the river and asked if we could share the fire. Of course they agreed. Initially there were 4 people and eventually by the time the meat was cooked they multiplied and became 15 family members. I've been introduced to all of them. Apparently Polish tourists in Argentina and especially in that region are unusual to meet. In fact each time I was buying the long distances bus tickets, Poland has never appeared on the system. The second day of my stay I've been invited by my host Alberto to kind of spa (hot/thermal stream of water falling in to the big water container -bath - in a thermal room). It was very hot outside so was inside and hardly I could breath. It was an interesting experience for the body and mind. I've definitely detached from the outworld and relaxed even more, which was almost difficult as i was already completely relaxed....I'm not sure if such amount of high temperature outdoors and indoors is good for a human being.... The evening was even more exciting, i've been invited to Alberto's rasta friend house which was just brilliant. Such a small hand made house that everything there was just about right. It was like a boat or plane where everything must fit in. The kitchen was very practical with home made blade of wood of inregular border shapes. On one side of the wall deviding kitchen from a bedroom, was a tv screen which was reversible, either you could watch movie in the kitchen or in the bedroom. Next to the bedroom was a small bathroom with all facilities imaginable such as hydro-masage shower, bidet with a double celling to create a day light effect. On top of the bedroom - half high suspended - was a studio , accessible from the mobile staires. We made a fantastic pizza with local friends of Alberto and we were left with a very limited time to couch up my bus to Salta (North Argentina). It was a crazy drive by a very abstract contemporary car rebuilt from an old fiat 125 with automatic doors lock. There was no access at all to open or to shut down the door manually but only by the drivers magic button. It was a futuristic car which brought me magically on time to terminal de omnibus (bus station). Terminal looked like a Heathrow airport.Actualy Argentina is a pretty well developed country which was a quite surprise to me. I was expecting a little bit more exotic and undeveloped third world country. But I guess the world is changing and there are less places like this available. They say that Argentinians buses are very luxury and comfortable with cama service (bed). Actualy this wasn't my experience most of the time I traveled on normal very uncomfortable buses with semi cama service (regular seats) due to a high number of travelers. In Argentina the airlines are every expensive, to flight internally or within south America the cost of ticket is at list 1000$ which makes obvious to use other public transport considering there is a very limited rail way service. Another interesting thing about the country is the actual economy. Argentinians are not allowed to use any other than their own (pesos) currency. They hardly can travel outside of their country as peso is very wick. On the black currency Market with 7 pessos you can buy 1 dollar while at the bank is 4.9$ for 1 peso. I didn't know about it before coming to Argentina. If I did I would have exchanged the currency over here. Back to Salta. I've done a couch surfing at Salta at Germano's place who lives in the centre. I've spent there a couple of nights and I even purchased the ticket to Catchi (in the mountines) but didn't use it at the end. I've met on the street Argentinian tourists: Javier and Xavier who were heading next day to Jujuy so I decided to leave with them instead. Im not sure if it was a good idea because at the end after the first destination we traveled together, we discontinued the further trip. I've visited with them Purmamarca http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&tbm=isch&source=og&sa=N&tab=li&q=Purmamarca,+Jujuy+Province,+Argentina&biw=1024&bih=596&sei=FpgCUcerLuSY0QXNpYHABA - the most famouse 7 colours mountain and great salinas 4000 m over the sea level. I've suffered initially from a high attitude with hudge headache and luck of oxygen. I love that part of Argentina with fantastic colours and beautiful landscape with variety of cactus around. I stayed at the camping hostel for a night: 70 pesos /9£ with breakfast (desayuno) included. The guys had got a tend (carpa) and initial idea was going together to remote locations and sharing the tend with them but eventually there was no neccesity of doing it in first place because we were in the turistic location with well developed accommodation infrsuatructure and secondary we didn't continue further journey together anyway. I took the bus and moved on, as i was heading up north I met people traveling to Bolivia. As I didn't have any particular destination in my mind I followed others to the border of Bolovia which I crossed in group of 10 people girls and boys I met at the border (Quiaca). I've traveled with guys over the night to the most antique Latin American city Potosi http://www.lonelyplanet.com/bolivia/the-southwest/potosi I experienced the memory flash back from my South East Asian and Indian trip. We were traveling by mini bus instead of 8 people in 12 and kept adding more further on the way. Basically the cars in Bolivia are elastic and can fit unlimited number of people. Instead of 3 hours trip it turned up 6 hours without possibility of moving at all. Eventually we've got to the destination and found the most obscure and ugly hostel by only 30 bolivians per night (3£). No windows, cold water, no showers and dirty sanitaries. After I woke up I made my way to a local market with variety of fruit, veggies and empanadas (dumplings with meat, ham and cheese or vegs). I invited 3 musceteros I was traveling with in Bolivia to desayuno (breakfast) and we had got a typical Bolivian breakfast based on home made bread with mantiqua (butter) and gem plus caffe con leech (coffee milk). We changed the hostel for a more central and much better quality one in the same price. I had got my own room next to the guys. We visited the silver mine characterised by a very cruel conditions of children slavery work. One of those kids was our guide who didn't seem to hide the fact of cheap children labor. It looks like he was proud of his precious job in that mine: 6 days per week, 12 hours a day carrying on 800kg containers of rock in and out of the rocks. There was no safety and security regulations what so ever, and even allowing turists in was risky. This is another inspiration for the next dance production! In the last production of 'rights(?)' vaguely we touched up on such a topic but not mainly. This is another exploration I would like to do around human trafficking and cheap labors abusive use. Apparently in this case, it appears to be such a good and very respectful job that every 10 year old boys ironically should do... They work in mine for 10 years and when they reach 20, they quit and go to school. The daily salary is 80bolivians (BOB)/7£ and monthly 2000BOB/180£, while the average one is 600BOB/55£. It's like back to Poland during the communist time in 80s. In Salta (Jujuy in Argentina) since 4 days I've been suffering the high attitude with symptoms of head-ache and luck of oxygen. The trip wasn't easy especially in Bolivia squeezed like sardine in the car and with such a low temperature in the mountains. I wasn't prepare to travel and especially not in a cold. I left Buenos Aires just with a hand baggage - the tinny rock sack (muchilla) and ended up crossing half of South America. As I've mentioned earlier on the way to Bolivia on the bus from the Argentinian/Bolivian border Quiaca I met 3 Argentinian guys who were traveling to Peru through Bolivia, I joined them and we spent 3 days together in Potosi on the way to la Paz (the capital of Bolivia). After visiting such an impressive and sad maine we want to 'ojo de Inca' (Indian's eye) - where I swam for few hours in a crater of vulcan immersed in a hot water over 30 cell-degrees. While the weather kept constantly changing from the sun to the rain, wind, storm, I kept myself in a hot thermal water. Being in the epicentre of vulcan was somehow magic and calming. I felt very safe and relaxed. The vulcan was surrounded by the mountains (4000 meters above the sea level), when I couldn't stay any longer in the water, I climbed up to see the crater of vulcan from the top. It was a magic view and wonderful fulfilling experience. The day after we were heading to La Paz (Bolivian capital). After 12 hours night trip on the bus we arrived in La Paz - the highest capital of America Latina. I continued my journey on my own to Coroico http://www.lonelyplanet.com/bolivia/cordillera-real-and-the-yungas/coroico Impressive landscape and waterfalls. Locals working in the fields planting coka, cocao and coffee. Coka apparently is the best herb to get rid of hight attitude sickness. I've tried it but I didn't believe it could help. I equalised the attitude derferences with yoga inverted positions. At the beganinn i was short of breath during the sun salutation but eventually i've managed to do a headstand and this helped me to overcome the constant headache and suffocation due to the luck of oxygen. As soon as I arrived at this picturesque countryside sourrinded by high mounties over 4000m high, I've fund a really nice hostel at the end of the village, located at the back of a luxury Don Juan hotel with a swimming pool and I stayed there for one night (45BOB/4£). I've waked for 20 km back and forth to 3 waterfalls. I've jumped in a freezing water of the biggest waterfall in that area and swam underneath. It was such a refreshing and pleasant experience. Then I continued climbing up the mountain and getting to the hidden rural area of Coroico far away from the tourists. I met a 25 years old mother with a child who told me about her daily life over there. She is maried and look after her child. She cooks and cleans. She has never been outside of her village. She seems to be happy. The sunset was about to come and I needed to walk back another 10km. I met a 55 year old woman who was carrying on her back in a typical Bolivian dress the colourful bag full of lifts of coka. I took it from her and carried it on to her home. She was a mother of 2 adult children, one of them lives in Argentina (BA). She travels back and forward from Bolivia to Argentina. Apparently due to such a bad economical situation in Bolivia a lot of people emigrated to Argentina. Im not surprise, even if Argentina is still cheap for West Europeans, it's still much more expensive for South Americans. The food on the streets of Bolivia was very delicious. I enjoyed in particular the breakfast: Api (corn purple fruit drink) with fried Puniuelo (no cheese pastry) and my favourite was a Pastel (with cheese pastry). They cook it very quickly on the street on the gas fire. It's warm and sweet. The Pastel is a bit salty, which combines perfectly with a sweet hot drink of Api. In Coroico I choose to be on my own. I enjoyed the beauty of a landscape, kindness and open heart of locals. i caught the bus and in 2 hours got back to La Paz. On the way to the capital of Bolivia I met a couple - Swedish guy and Columbian woman. They both met in Bolivia, he was continuing his life trip around the world to Peru, she was going back to Panama where she lives and works in truism. Her intention was to sell her car and join him. When he's got bored of his routine in Sweden he sold his house and car, packed his rock-sack and decided to turn around the world. He said it was the best decision of his life. He's been traveling since 5 months so far. This is definitely an inspiration for people who are curious of the world but don't have a courage to get it known. The life of a traveler/backpacker is not easy and very challenging. But who said that life is easy and the pleasure comes without difficulties. All the best in our life comes from a hard work and when less expected. From la Paz I had got one more hour before catching the bus to La Quiaca (Bolivian/Argentina) border. I've got used to long trips so I could easily sleep during the night on the uncomfortable little bus chair and visit the places during the day. When I reached the border with Argentina - Villazon I walked through the park which was animated by foreigners and local folk dancers who were performing during the Bolivian Carnival. I've been offer a hot chocolate with pastels and danced with locals in the croud. As usual my phone was dead and I asked a photo shop owner to charge it for me. He told me that the lunch starts at 1pm. I had got 1 hour before the shop closes. In the meantime I decided to do some shopping and buy memory card for my gopro camera, which was actually broken and typical Bolivian clothes: colourful stripy trousers and cashmere sweeter. After I've got back to pick up my charged iphone, the shop was closed and I couldn't proceed to cross the border and get my other bus connection to Jujuy and then to the most wonderful waterfalls on the world located on the border between Argentina and Brasil - Iguazu. Well I didn't panic because the experience of traveling in underdeveloped countries tought me that every thing is unexpected and i need to chill out and live a moment. So I did. I've joined the Argentinian musicians playing tango by the square and as soon as they finished I've noticed the shop next to the photographer was opened. I went there and realised that it was linked to the other photo shop. I saw my iphone and wanted to grab it and run to the border. The lady sited behind the desc told me to wait as she needs to find out form the photographer if Im allowed to take back my iphone. Eventually I've got it and went straight forward to the over side of the border - La Quiaca. This Argentinian side seemed to be death, empty streets, shops, half restaurants were closed. When I got to the bus station I found out that my bus to Jujuy was gone and I needed to wait for another one to Tucuman for 5 more hours. i had to pay the additional ticket's fee to travel further south along Argentina, then to go up to north east border of Argentina to visit one of the world's wonders - the Iguazu waterfalls. La Quiaca was miserable and with the rain became even more depressing. I found somewhere to have a hot shower and eat dinner. This was the first time during my trip I went to the proper restaurant. I tent to eat on the streets and with locals. If I go to the restaurant it is usually a local place where are no tourists. After a soup and a meat (milanese - fried beef with bread crumbles) for the first time durring the whole trip I had a stomach-ache. Somehow I've managed it easily as I guess I developed anti bodies which protect my immune system. After the whole night of a bus trip I've waken up in Tucuman, where I had to wait 3 more hours before the next bus connection to Iguazu. In such a big shopping complex I went to the bar by the bus station, where by the table I left my little rock-sack and went to the restroom. On the way back an older couple by the other table stopped me, mentioning that I shouldn't leave unattended stuff in Argentina as it's dangerous. They invited me to their table, then their doughtier with a granddaughter joined and while having 2 medialunas (croissants) and cappuccino breakfast (15 Argentinian pesos ARS/1.9£) offered by them, we were exchanging information about the political and economical situation of South America and Europe. For the last year Argentina has been limited with an export and traveling abroad, because the external currency has been forbidden in the country to avoid the economical crises. I'm actually wondering how long such a corrupted dictatorial system is going to survive, I hope the crises from 20 years back won't happen again. This family is a middle class family of doctors with a pretty high life style but they can not afford even going to Brazil where prices are double. It's really sad to see like highly educated people are so limited in their life because of the narrow minded government management. Who knows when they are going to get rid of the dictator. Eventualy I've got on the bus and after 18 hours of trip I woke up in Iguacu. I found a nice hostel 'Peter Pan' (90ARS/11£ near by the bus station with a tinny swimming pool where I could recharge the battery. I met friendly Israeli guys who just finished army and went on traveling. After one resting day and resourcing my camera's equipment I visited the most beautiful waterfalls in the world. Iguacu is one of the world's largest waterfalls (one of 7 wonders of the world's nature) http://www.google.com/search?q=iguazu&hl=en&safe=active&client=safari&tbo=d&rls=en&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=H6UFUbjFKeOH0AWZsIHQAw&ved=0CAcQ_AUoAA&biw=1024&bih=596 it was definitely worth to get there after 48 hours of trip from Bolivia, through northern Argentina - Tucuman and finally reaching Iguazu by three borders of Argentina, Paragway and Brazil. I've visited the Argentinian side which is the most exposed to the waterfalls, i went on a speedy boat directly under the waterfalls. It was such an amazing experience, the energy and stream of the water were significantly powerful. It was the most beautiful view I have ever experienced in my life. I definitely can recommend it to everyone: the colours of the rainbow created out of the falling water steam, the sound of the water constantly crushing against the river's current and the sound of the singing birds immersed in the nature, the wild animals in the middle of the jungle of Iguazu Park, which are only available to the guides who live in the park. All this nature fulfils one's soul and heart, makes one happy and speechless. On the way to southern Brasil from this magic place i was lucky to seat next to the person who was born in the middle of this park and lived there for 18 years of his life. He was a son of the park's guide and he learned everything about the wild life over there. Tourists are not aware of fact that there are wild animals like tigers, pumas, ecc. They wouldn't probably attack any visitors as the park is safe and well looked after. I don't mind meeting the wild animals but I would have to be there in the night. One day I'll be back there and go on tour with Jose - a tour guide who knows everything about this place. The next day I woke up squised in the tinny bus's chair on Florianopolis island of Brazil. On the bus I also met 2 Israeli guys who were heading in the same direction. We traveled together. As soon as we've got to Barra da Lagoa, http://www.google.com/search?q=iguazu&hl=en&safe=active&client=safari&tbo=d&rls=en&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=H6UFUbjFKeOH0AWZsIHQAw&ved=0CAcQ_AUoAA&biw=1024&bih=596#hl=en&safe=active&client=safari&tbo=d&rls=en&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=Barra+da+Lagoa&oq=Barra+da+Lagoa&gs_l=img.3..0l5j0i5l3j0i24l2.943989.943989.0.944885.1.1.0.0.0.0.119.119.0j1.1.0...0.0...1c.1.z9g-5omE_dY&bav=on.2,or.r_gc.r_pw.r_qf.&bvm=bv.41524429,d.d2k&fp=a0695d2003ee9454&biw=1024&bih=596 we were surrounded by Argentinian and Israeli tourists. As a matter of fact we couldn't find any accommodation. Finally we've been recommended by a local guy s new hotel where we found eventually the place. This was the most luxury place I have stayed during my 6 weeks trip. Everything was new, of good standard with a clean swimming pool and the rooms cleaning service. It was 70 BRL reales (22£) per night per person, with AC and hot water. It was a treat for myself after such a long and exhausting journey across half of south America. Finally I was able to run on the large beaches by sunrise and sunset, listen to the ocean, practice yoga and swim miles away in the middle of a long waves, which have got a therapeutic effect on the skin, body and mind. I felt like I was in spa, it was a definitely the best end of my southern american trip. I've guided my two companions of trip across the mountains to the other beaches: Praia Mole and Joauqina. It was a marvellous very picturesque tracking in the middle of the rainforest with iguanas, on the top of the hill with a wonderful see view on 3 different beaches and a laguna. As soon as we've got to the beach Praia Mole I went for a long 1 hour swim. After my return, guys wanted to change the beach as they've been exposed to pretty big attention of other guys, it was apparently a nudist beach with different sexual orientations. We went to the next Joauquina beach which was crowded and occupied by vendors of each kind of food and bikinis. Obviously my preference was the previous beach. After this excursion I went to the local restaurant run by the Brazilian fisherman family, a little bit detached from the Barra da Lagoa crowd and had a dinner made of previously bought calamaris form one of the family's members. The night before when I discovered this place I met the owner of the restaurant 'Maria&Maria' who served me a fantastic dinner made of shrimps cocked in sauce made of cream, mustard and onion accompanied by rise, salad and french fries for only 35 BRL (10£). I've met there a musician who danced and choreographed for 26 years for Polish folk dance group in Brasil. Apparently there is such a big community of Poles who emigrated there after the war. He was familiar with all Polish folk dance groups, spoke some Polish, currently played and sang the Polish folk repertoire. That night I debuted as a singer with a Polish folk song ' Szla Dzieweczka do laseczka...', I had got a remarkable audience and baud. I danced and he even asked me to perform with them on the main square of the town the next day. During that evening one of the restaurant's family member - the fisherman sold me the 1/2kg of calamaris for 6BRL (2£). I've asked the waiter (owner of the restaurant) to cook it next day for me and his family so we can have dinner together. He and his family agreed to do so. That's how I ended up eating delicious calamaris on the next day. I've tried also the shrimps emapnada (fried dumpling) which was delicious. The next day I left this marvellous place and arrived in Buenos Aires after 28 hour of bus trip. During this trip I was sited next to the Argentinian guy who has lived in Spain for last 8 years and before for the same amount of time he spent his life in Florianopolis in Brazil. He was about to realise that working and living the materialistic life is not exactly what he wants to do in his life. He packed his bag and left. He's been traveling since then without knowing his destination. While I travel I realise that my place is in the universe, I can not stay in one place and I love in particular discovering undeveloped places, I love the nature and people literately living of nothing. When I am in the mountines or by the sea with the ray of sunshine I feel that this is my diminution, the place where I want to be. When I get back to London I question myself, what am I here for. Is it the place i want to live in, or it's just the transition from one to another life style. I realise eventually that's just the transitions. It's difficult to get out of here and forget about the opportunities London can give. But life is so short to be able to wait too long for changes to occur. Im here because of dance and education, Im here because of freedom to pack my bag and go whenever and wherever I want. I need to find the gold elixir to manage both my dance and traveling, civilisation and third world. If there is anyone who can help me to choose please get in touch. I hope you enjoyed this journey with me and could experience at least in some degree what I've been living for last 6 weeks. I appreciate your time and attention;) You are welcome to leave any comment you wish.