It's time to join the blog after 2 months of silence. Since i came back from Florida I couldn't find my inner peace. I've been constantly searching for the reason of unhappiness and I was becoming more and more trapped. I was blaming the weather and the love ones for my darkness. I was anxious and down because I literally wanted to experience this hate towards myself. I was putting too much pressure on everything around me and making myself and others soffocate. I've been through moody xmas and freezing streets of London. I've managed to organise and perform with my dance partners showing two pieces. We rented the theatre and invited other guest artists to participate in allotropiamovement 'eat your poem and experience the movement'. I fused my dance company with another one and to celebrate it we came out with showcase on 18th December 2010. As usual it was such a hectic time between the rehearsals and teaching, studding on two courses: yoga therapy and physical theatre that at the end just before the Xmas I've completely collapsed pshychologicly and emotionally. I couldn't pick myself up into one piece. The inner unhappiness was completely overwhelming my usually positive attitude. Somehow I've got back to myself and i am normal again. Sometime I think there is no more to go, that's it...but somehow I wake up and there is another day and I can get out of the bad and enjoy again the beauty of this world and my life. I've still got friends and family. I do what I love and I am happy to be. First time in my life I've spent Xmas in London and I had got such a great tour guide that I couldn't complain. Though it was feezzing cold but we've been two few Anglican churches, especialy to royal chapel which opens only few times a year to the public. Luckly we managed to enter it. The only thing attracted my attention was the choirs which was accompaning my meditatin. I am not a big fun either of coldness or the city, usualy my free time I spend in tropics but this time wasn't supposed to happen. That's why probably I've got completely frustrated and I couldn't believe that I didn't go anywhere. I explored fully london on foot and byke. It was briliant !!!!!!Never mind now we are heading to Edinburg for new years eave. It's 29th December 2010 and we are going to head back home on 2nd jan 2011. My friend is going to be in the town back from camino de compostela pelgrimage of 45 days and 900 km by walk. I can not wait to congratulate him in person. I'm on the bus going to Edinburg and I'm falling asleep. Better I meet morfeus now before its gona be too late to enter the dreams world.
30th December 2010 sitting on the royal mile street of Edinburgh, watching people passing by and freezing. This is day 1 of our scotish adventure. We visited so far the hollyrood royal palace next To the hudge mountain behind our accommodation. We are not allowed in with shoes. We live a walking distance from the centre. We also walked into the scotish parliament building. Very exciting I must say. Tonight the candles procession in plan...but before pasta with meatballs and tomato sauce;)
1st January 2011
Here we are listening a talk of two scotish crime writters: Ian Rankin and Lin Anderson. We didn't have tickets but with incredible determination of my bf we got in by back door. And we are surrounded by very welcoming scotish-Edinburg community of litterature related people.
I must admit the Edinburg's Hogmanay 2010/11 is very well organised. We spent new years eve dinner at Iranian girl very cousy house. Very good company and food treat. Later on we moved on to the street party and welcomed new year there. Nice life band concert of some scotish rock group and fire works display from the hill of the Edinburgh castle.
'You have to walk and touch the Walls to feel Edinburgh...' L.A
Alice Thomson (poertobello)
Robert Lu Stevenson
James Hog
St Andrews square (Edinburgh)
Oscar Wilde
We happened to watch the outdoor concert of KT Tunsall. It was very good experience but I must admit I froze to death. I couldn't even move in the rhythm of music.
2nd January 2011
Second day of new year and I'm freezing at the Murrayfield's rugby stadium. Im actually watching the rugby match Edinburgh-Glasgow and just finished eating fish and chips. I think i've never been so dispeared in my life in order to enjoy such a quality life style. We haven't missed for sure not even one of the Scotish hogmanay events. It's a last night of edinburgh's experience and tonight we are catching the night bus to come back home (London).
